two years later
I'm back

 it all comes crashing down

This is how it has to be
A kiss for luck, submerge myself
And in 7 weeks resurface
Even if we don't look back again

don't come home. i have no place to go and i can't have you here.

i just want it to be cold and it to snow and to feel okay why is this so much to ask

 we spend so much time telling ourselves that "it's going to be okay" that we never actually get the chance to make it okay ( Read more... )

i prepared myself for it.

things were looking up. i was looking forward to feeling okay again, i thought hey, maybe, this is a sign. this is what i needed. hope is all-encompassing, so i can take that.

but i knew better, and fuck you, i always do. it is always right around the corner.
it is a simple message.

you will never be better.

try

oh shit too late

for something that is simply not mine.

surprise.

this is too much

more than you could ever know!

i'm a fool.