Comments | ofghostsandhope: too quiet to be a cry for help

ofghostsandhope

too quiet to be a cry for help

Mar 23, 2005 11:05

this might end up being long. if you want our relationship to stay superficial- skip this...
cause im thinking its going to be pretty open and honest.

( click at your own risk )

Comments 20

melt_ March 23 2005, 19:17:10 UTC

my mom is 50 as well. she doesn't have a job, and smokes pot to keep herself from slipping into a depression. she tried to kill herself back in october. my dad and mom get along, but my sister's problems are destroying them both. my sister is tearing us all apart.

i know what it feels like to lose friends. or to not have the closeness with someone that you so long for. it's hard, i know.

that doesn't put me in your shoes, but i come from a perspective that is very understanding. we haven't been the best of friends, ryan, but i'm always here. you do have a friend in me.

ofghostsandhope March 23 2005, 20:56:02 UTC

im so sorry to hear about your mom's problems. ill do my best to remember her, and you in my prayers.

im going to say this to everyone who comments but dont think that makes it any less true of you...
you dont have to prove anything to me- i know youre a friend and it means a lot to me.

melt_ March 23 2005, 21:10:59 UTC

i just want you to know i'm here. to lend an ear, or whatever you need. bottom line. <3.

ready_and_go March 23 2005, 19:22:21 UTC

i'm not going to reply with some "yeah i know how you feel." or "my life is shitty too".
i don't even think i want to reply with sympathy or i love you's.
i'd like to say you should know i care about you, but i don't think either one of use have tried very hard to keep up a friendship since you left.
i do hope you know that i am here for you. and i hope we can work on some sort of friendship again.

because i do miss my little ryan v lower <3

ofghostsandhope March 23 2005, 20:58:53 UTC

i appreciate you replying the way you did.

i do know youre there for me, and i hope you know you dont have to prove anything to me. i know youre there for me.

ready_and_go March 24 2005, 05:45:35 UTC

i still owe you cupcakes with pink frosting and rainbow sprinkles from a year and a half ago. :)

eep do you think you could squeeze me in before you go back up to school?

wine_red March 23 2005, 19:51:10 UTC

hello, ryan my friend. let me gather words. k ( ... )

ofghostsandhope March 23 2005, 21:01:05 UTC

kelly i love you too and youre an amazing friend. i wish i could honestly say you are one of my close friends, but i think i only have maybe three. but i would LOVE for you to be be a closer friend. maybe we should start writing emails or something- anything. but i wanted to tell you this more than anyone.... you DONT have to prove anything to me. i know how great of a person and how caring of a friend you are.

wine_red March 23 2005, 21:11:47 UTC

thank you ryan. emailing would be nice. cos I never get to see you. <3

mistakenkindnes March 23 2005, 19:56:39 UTC

Well, I know that I honestly don't have an answer for you Ryan... I wish I did but given the situation that you are in and I myself have not been in I feel that I do not have the knowledge to share on this subject. All that I can say is hang in there, I cant say things will get better and I cant say they will be worse, all I can say is stay strong. Because you are strong in God, he is your best place to look for guiedence. If you want to talk ever feel free to IM me on aim(mistakenkindness) or call me(623 703 5300) I am a good listener.

Brad

ofghostsandhope March 23 2005, 21:05:29 UTC

its okay not to have an answer. it really is. we hardly know each other brad but youre always there for me and i really appreciate that. like everyone in my life... you dont have to prove anything to me i have no doubts about the quality of your character.

mistakenkindnes March 23 2005, 21:09:28 UTC

I know this is true but I don't like to see you hurting. You are an amazing person so it pains me to know that you are hurting. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

mirabear March 23 2005, 20:03:12 UTC

I read this namely because though we have only met a few times, I care.

I find myself in the exact same place a lot. I'm surrounded by tons of people here that are awesome, keep up with me, that I enjoy... But it is so hard being away from those you find close to you. In your case Devin... I FEEL LONELY A LOT TOO!

I know we are just penpals. But I care, and you could've written this in a letter to me.

<3

ofghostsandhope March 23 2005, 21:10:13 UTC

im deeply sorry that you can relate, miranda- but very thankful at the same time. and we're not JUST penpals. we're friends and i know i could have written any or all of this to you.

you of all people have nothing to prove to me, especially about how much you care.

mirabear March 23 2005, 23:09:08 UTC

good. i am so glad you kniow it!

<3