i've never been in so much pain. i'm doubting if going down to the beach was even worth it. the backs of my legs are extremely sunburnt. no matter what other part of my body is sunburnt, the pain is drowned out by my throbbing legs. i can't extend my legs. i can't stop crying, that's how bad it hurts. i keep smearing them with cooling sprays and ( Read more... )

change of plans.. amanda and i are leaving for ocean city, maryland in t minus five minutes. i'll be back later tomorrow. talk about spontaneous.

i'm trying to keep it together, but i'm falling apart.

tuesday ryan and i took a trip down to the ottobar in baltimore, maryland. we saw a wilhelm scream, some shitty band called brazil, and lawrence arms. i can proudly say i attended lawrence arms's 721st show. the methadones opened up the show, but ryan and i got there late and decided to go get something to eat first. i was highly impressed with ( Read more... )

"we had all the momentum; we were riding the crest of a high and beautiful wave."

since i couldn't go to the lebowskis show at the chameleon i decided to meet up with the beautiful ashley amazing at the champion ship. a utopian skyline ruled as usual. it was good to see bradley, aaron, and the rest of the boys. i saw jenn and don which was a huge surprise. elora's walking now and jenn's belly's getting bigger. i wonder if this ( Read more... )

so i changed my layout.. kinda. whatever. when i actually have more time maybe i'll make it look pretty. i walked to and from work today in the rain. i was not a happy camper.. in fact i was a drenched and angry camper. ryan came over last night around 1:30am or so after the lebowskis show at gullfity's. they're playing a show tomorrow at the ( Read more... )

i hate being angry, but it just seems to happen too often for my liking. what can i say? i'm an irritable person. the smallest things irk me and set me off. i don't think i ask for much, so when i don't get what i ask for.. i get pissy. i'm sick of hearing the same things over and over again. the same excuses. they're getting worn and i'm getting ( Read more... )

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so i've actually developed some sort of life lately. i usually work, sleep, eat, and hang out with ryan. i sold ryan's younger brother, logan, my bowl. there was no point in having it since i don't smoke pot anymore, especially when i could get extra cash out of it. so tonight ryan and i went out to eat at the cracker barrell since this guy ryan ( Read more... )