Dear self,

Stay busy & stop thinking about it.

Love,
Sylvia.

My job is making me sad. My duties are slowly being stripped and I wonder if they're slowly phasing me out. I think I'm taking it all too personally, but my supervisor seems to be taking over more and more of my daily tasks. Part of it is because they are somewhat of a control freak, but I do my job well, so there's no need to reassign it. So why ( Read more... )

1 - Tell you why I friended you ( Read more... )

You know what *really* hurts ( Read more... )

Rufus Wainwright, John Mayer, Elliot Smith & Damien Rice sure know how to make a girl smile ( Read more... )

The last half of this week they've made a concentrated effort to prevent my moping. Today I was tossed in a car and taken to Disneyland for a day of frolicking. I had fun, despite myself. It took my mind off all the suicidal and depressive thoughts that have crept in lately. Even my ex has been really cheerful towards me ( Read more... )

( Cut for depressive episodes )

What makes man so afraid of trying?

Here are a few pictures, to give you a taste of my paradise.

( I dreamt you returned one day, just the way you said )

I'm afraid I've fallen out of love with L. Or maybe this a case of the "iffs". I had been feeling this way for a couple of weeks, unwilling to admit it to myself. After the kiss with R, I thought I had gotten over my doubts, my fears, my general apathy towards our relationship ( Read more... )