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leaving LJ!
ATTENTION ALL: I AM LEAVING LJ
I have surprised even myself in saying that. This morning I thought about it and have reached the conclusion that it is best for me and my recovery.
Some of my best friends have expressed concern over me and have wanted desperately to see me and continue a friendship with me. I have pushed them all away, isolated myself ( Read more... ) -
Welfare day
Today at school was Welfare day and a whole bunch of different people came to talk to us about various issues affecting adolescents such as sex, risk taking, safe + happy relationships, drugs, alcohol, driving and peer pressure. Everyone always seems to think days like this are boring, but I really enjoyed today and from the way everyone was ( Read more... ) -
wish the sun would smile
Even though it was raining cats and dogs today, I still got carried away as per usual and walked the very long way to the shops and to the library. There I sat looking through the window at the beautiful green garden outside and watched the droplets gently sliding down the roof.
I studied for my history and maths exams coming up this week. I've ( Read more... ) -
on the edge
Ok so I really have no clue what happened to me today........I was a total mess all day and couldn't stop crying. I kept trying to hold back the tears in class. Today I felt like I could be stronger, strong enough to resist food and strong enough to not need it- to not need the energy or the nutrience it brings. Today I wanted to be without food, ( Read more... ) -
'Girls Can Do Anything'
Today was the BodyThink 'Girls Can Do Anything' year 8 welfare program at school which I volunteered to help out with. The day was absolutely amazing and at the end of it the girls were requesting for a monthly workshop because they all wanted to come back that badly!!
The day began with us all looking at glossy, glamourised pictures of skinny, tall ( Read more... ) -
a day in the life of me
I really enjoyed dance class today. My friend Maddy and I tried to compose our dance using only an iriver seeing as how I was meant to bring my ipod but forgot it. We had a great time creating our dance and perfecting our motif. Our dance is supposed to incorporate 16 ways to manipulate a motif- as if you can fit all that into about 2 minutes of ( Read more... ) -
going to an empty school.
I ended up going to school today early to meet up with my friend. Together the two of us sat and chatted outside the music rooms. I feel bad all the time when she offers me food and I constantly say "No thankyou I'm fine". Today my friend was eating hot chips and I'm beginning to wonder if she suspects something about my bizarre eating habits and ( Read more... ) -
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Today I have decided to go to school even though it is strike day and most kids will be hanging at the plaza. I want to go to school......is that lame or what? :O -
proud of myself today
Today I am proud of myself. I began crying and crying this afternoon and the tears wouldn't stop flowing. I was doing my obsessive behaviour of changing outfits over and over again. Thinking I looked fat, believing I was ugly and changing changing changing until I felt so much pain that I physically yelled out loud "God why are you doing this to me ( Read more... ) -
a birthday
Wow. I cannot believe I am 16 years old. I would have updated yesterday about my birthday, but I simply felt exhausted from the day. I woke up at 4am and felt so jittery that I couldn't sleep. Most people feel like this because they are so unbearably excited for their special day. Not me. I felt nervous about it. Nervous that my day wouldn't go ( Read more... )