work sucks. i'm bored.

I need to start doing something different. i am really unhappy with a lot of things. i feel like i'm wasting my life. it seems like i dont have enough time to do the things that i like but i do have the time i just waste it. i need to set some goals for myself: 1) i need to hang out with girls more, megan, amanda, pricsilla, luna ect... i always ( Read more... )

i dont want to do this anymore. i wish i had the balls to kill myself. i dont want to do this anymore

i feel so fucking alone, and empty. i don't know what i'm doing. im sorry but not so much that i can change the way that i act. especially when you can't ever admit that your wrong. if i had a gun i would shoot myself. no, that's not true. i wouldn't have the balls. i dont know how to do this anymore, the back and forth, we fight more often than we ( Read more... )

i am sick of being chubby. i want to be skinny, like disgustingly skinny, the kind of skinny where if i put my hands over my head you could see all twelve ribs.

Lonely.

my life is an embarrassment.

i am soooooo weak!!! i haven't had a cigarette since saturday and i am fucking dying. my chest hurts i feel dizzy and i want to smoke.

i really don't know what to do. i had a really good night last night, i went out without christopher. i never go out any more and it felt really nice to be around people that like me. anyway, thats not really part of my story. i got in another fight this morning, i said some really fucked up things and so did he. i feel like an asshole, but i ( Read more... )

why do i have to be so goddamn sensitive, everythings personal, everythings an insult, blah, blah, blah....i get so sick of myself