hahhahaha ( Read more... )

i'm feeling better about things but i'm way too tired on cymbalta

i'm trying to lose weight and look like i did BACK THEN

today i ate:

pineapple (eww a whole fruit!)
raisins
some granola
bowl of rice
veggies
a little steak

no workout

tomorrow i will be better. i need to stop being so fuckingf at

after a long hiatus, i am back ( Read more... )

what is wrong with me?

uncontrollable bingeing and overeating for the past few weeks, even after i lost my christmas break weight! gah, i'm back to where i started from. i just want to be super skinny and die fucking happy

i'm just so sad ( Read more... )

what is keeping me from living life?

"if you work out for 2 hours everyday (at least), why don't you look like a stick?"

-my boyfriend

UGH

everything in my life is a constant reminder that i fucked up my life

i don't even have any friends.

no one ever calls me to hangout

no one calls me, period.

i'mjust that girl you see that wears weird clothes andwalks around like she doesn'tcare

but it's really because no one likes me

andi just end up hating everyone

everyday is the same story i want to start over. i do well for one day and fall off the boat.

i really really really want to be healthy. is that too much to ask? 8 years is enough.

healthy healthy healthy
moderation.

thin thin thin