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brisk walking
in the rain
makes my
tiny head
spin

like an
aphrodisiac
used up
much too soon

I see faces
staring,
but they don't
mean a thing
to me

I swallow
your pill,
and then they
mean everything.

the most you
can do
is stand
above me
and watch
as I deteriorate
and scratch
at your veins
while you
try and
stop me

slither away
or bend
at the throat,
but you will
always fall
one step
behind.

It's sad that
you only listen
when I hold your
heart above
my head

relax, baby
I won't hurt it,
atleast not like
you hurt me

your fingers
press 'stop'
on the remote
but it will not
turn me off

I will
keep going
until I
shatter
your
heart.

envision a revival
and then count the days
until you die.

I never existed
because you wished
me away.

intensify this feeling
and lose yourself
within the tiny walls
you create

you told me that I
was nothing
and now that I
am something,
I don't know how to live

one
two
three
four

they enclose me
and I am
alone

it's like you
are poking me
from the inside
teaching me
how to feel

I have to relearn.
I have to live.

Your hands
shaking,
containing,
constricting,
pulsing as you
threw me
into the mirror.
Yeah, I felt that.
I saw it
coming too.
I stood there
and I watched
you go
insane.
I watched you
hurl your bricks
at me
as if I were
another person
looking in.
I could not
stop you,
so I
took the
blood from
my hands
and wiped it
on your sleeve.

I remember when
you etched your name
into my wrist.

You said I was sick,
but I didn't believe you.

How could I
when I felt nothing?

But I felt everything
when your fingers slipped.

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