we are the very hurt you sold...

[okah123]

it sucks...seeing the peices...remnants, of a man, lie before you. watching the warmth and laughter of a happy 14 year old boy who was on top of the world, shatter, into the millions of fractures that make up a sad...lost man. he's like the colors of the rainbow that forgot to blend...the fractures of a rainbow. my golden boy's turned grey

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[doinitwitrythem]

Hey Ave, i've wondered where you and that brother of mine have dissapeared to, well I guess you both were just being hermits now wern't you?Lol, it's not good to shut out the world but ah the fuck with it, I aint going to preech. You have a way with words though Avery,how you captured the misery so perfectly as if under a glass and translated into words and colors.Pain is beauty sometimes. It sucks to see him go down the drain like that, fuck...trust me I know, but it's good he got his shit together..its best that way and your a good person for this Avery, I told you that you have a gentle and healing soul. I suppose some closure should come to you because with all due respect it started with you and it only seems right to end with you right? I'm not blaming you to the least bit, I meant it as a compliment and so you know just how much you've accomplished Avery.You were there for him in the best kind of way,you touched him in the best kind of way and that was a loving way and not a way you have to wash your hands of, you know? I'm

[okah123]

thanks zac. you know i like writing...i dunno, the words kinda just come outta me. i wouldnt exactly call me gentle and healing, i think that he was just incredibley desperate for raw compassion and i just happened to show him some. you're right though, it always seems to start with me...but end? i dont see an end in sight for all the bullshit we've waded through day after day. the bullshit's up to my fucking mouth now zac...and its getting harder and harder to breathe. i miss hanging out with you...just like, forgetting about everything that hurts. i miss you.

[doinitwitrythem]

That I do, that I do. A gift that flows naturally through our finger-tips and is scribed across whatever, it runs in the family.You definitely got it.There will be an end to every begining, most always, how near or how far it is...that's not for me to say, but there's a plan for everyone. I miss you too Avery, fuck, why don't you come over? This house is lonely, Kate and the kids moved out so ...I wont have any distractions.Take care.I love and miss you too.