Im feeling mad nostalgic. Like i really wanna get in touch with high school me i swear. Darren does remind me of little peieces of me that i have forgotten over time. I have been so move move move go go go i forgot how magical the world is around me. I remember stopping and meditating on the beach. I havent done that in at least 6 years. I dont ( Read more... )

Just reading old journals. So entertaining Great to see where my mind is out and how thoughts manifests themselves. And how feelings on things aged. Did they age well? Eventhough im reading things from 2015 its funny how thr thoughts and feelings still stabd true. I had to laught about i post i made in nov 2015 about snagging a 24 year old because ( Read more... )

Kinda sad my mom is telling my sister to keep a tab.
I paid her rent in canada so she didnt get evicted
700
I paid he flight here 345
I had he living rent free with mw when she came down to work when she qas 19
I paid her flight to go to grandpas funeral which was another 300
I bought her a car for 2500
I paid her flight to come back herw to get sober
And ( Read more... )

In the begining of all connections we do our best to shine and put our best foot forward, Even if its subconscious. especially when you are in like with this person ( Read more... )

I had a dream that I was checking out this art studio and he was like a large studio
There are many students involved it was like an overnight campus they stayed at
I'm over there is probably like at least 60 plus student and we all practice in this one big room and it was almost like you had your art displayed outside and you had a cubicle of all ( Read more... )

If my siater is still around I might fly out to la and see what that place has in store for someone like me

2016
Lean out. Drop weight and lengthen
Yoga, running

Try to juice as often as possible
Drink.tea. as always :)

Finish school (may)

In the next 5 months focus on money and bettering myself physically so I can get back into modeling
Make a diet plan, see a nutritionist*

Launch massage business in
corporate
Residencial
And have a small office to worl on ( Read more... )

So I'm just pondering relationships and marriage and I can kind of see why around mid twenties a lot of unions and a breaking because these people invested in someone who is still building their dream. Like it makes me realize the risk you're taking when you get involved with someone who I mean they might speak of an end game or where they want to ( Read more... )

This post is going to be called the reality
The reason why I'm saying this is that I'm driving to work right now crunching numbers all of my current lifestyle
So I'm in school for two courses and one course because I already have student loan out I have to pay in cash every month
So that's a grand
Rent is 1000
Car is 245 for insurance
Car is 2:45 ( Read more... )

Your words are your truth
They are your perception of me
The olivia that you project

Saying I love you forever is like having sex outside
Its sexy because of the thought of being caught.

We aren't capable of loving someone forever.

Always wanting more and never satisfied is hell