i have beer breath. i got a job!!

i smell somebody bbqing, i'm listening to sigur ros and i've been alone in this house all day long. i'm miserable and i shouldn't be.

i'm taking the bus everywhere tomorrow, alone

the people here are a little different. not so happy. i'm blaming that on the rain, although the weather has been SO perfect! i've had a couple interviews, but i'm not too confident about them. still searchin. got my schedule, i'll be reading a ton of shit i don't really want to read but that's school, right? i just want to get there so i can meet ( Read more... )

i was always so unreliable because of my insecurities. i never wanted anybody to love me as much as they did.

now that i finally realized that, i had to share it. i miss you all. and whoever reads this should tell everyone else, too.

love

i never knew how hard things would be. i was drunk an hour ago, i don't know what happened to that. i'm so lonely right now. it sucks. i haven't listened to any music since the airplane, i'm too afraid. everyone's asleep and i'm so sad. but the sad i always was before, quiet and no one knows. i think i liked the crying every minute sad better, i ( Read more... )

i'm sitting at the phoenix airport. we missed our flight in tucson, so now we're here in order to get to seattle by 7 pm. my mama and i are really bonding, it's weird. there's this blabby, annoying, too pretty for her own good chick sitting next to me on the phone. "blah blah it's a shock to me! blahhh blah ( Read more... )

i'm an emotional wreck. my make up's running down my face, i feel like i could throw up ten thousand times and i just want to be next to diana. i want my walls to have crap on them, for my desk and dresser to have crap on them and for all of my kid stuff to be stacked in the closet. but, instead diana's at her house, there are boxes everywhere, ( Read more... )

i shouldn't be so scared and anxious and sad this week. so, fuck it. i'm going to have a good time and i will see everyone around christmas. :)

july 18th. i'm alone for the first time in a long time. i think i'm more hopefull than ever at this point. i keep randomly bursting out with the "OH MY GOD i love my life" bull shit a lot lately. but i don't know, i really DO ( Read more... )

i'm so cliche-ly sad listening to bright eyes. too much screaming and yelling and fighting and i'm so scared to be a grown up and to lose my friends and to move on. i hate my parents for so many reasons but ugh i miss them already. fuck this feeling.