what's today? i just wrote pages and pages of thoughts and now i can't stop thinking. what if this, what if that, i'm changing for this, i'm changing for that. i don't know why i keep telling myself that i want to be in control because when that finally happens, all i want is chaos

life is just so fucking incredibly unbelievable sometimes

change is what i live for! i've figured it out! i'm sad right now just so i'll be so much happier soon! anticipation is getting me places, and i've always known that. but shit, i lost track of my plan for a while there! i'm all better :) can't stop smiling and cannot WAIT for next week, and the week after that, and the week after that

i despise politics!

disgusting: www.factcheck.org

i'm good.

HAPPY MOTHA FUCKIN BIRTHDAY DIRTY DEEEEE

optimistic optimistic optimistic. i need to be comfortable in this skin, i need to be comfortable in these eyes, i need to be the old confident, forgetful, HAPPY me.

i need to stop thinking about how great things WERE and start thinking about how great things will (and most definitely CAN) be

i don't know how i feel. so bland.

i did laundry for the first time since i've been here. i have to go catch the bus in thirty minutes. my diet has been cap'n crunch, ice cream(or popsicles) and coffee for the past week.
i don't know what i'm saying, i don't know why i'm posting. i'm just mighty mighty lonely.

i've been trying my hardest to get a full understanding of the word home. what the hell does it mean? i'm trying my hardest to move out of this house real quick.

i just had deja vu again!! and at work today, too?! weird. i'm bummed about the olympics ending soon :( the weather's finally clearing up today, it's been cold rain for the past couple of days. i guess i should get used to it, although the cold and rainy season isn't supposed to be until three months from now. i made friends with hobos today, i'm ( Read more... )

i've been having deja vu over five times a day and it's really starting to freak me out. maybe i really was meant to be here?
i now have two jobs :)