yay! i made golden blues

blahh yay.
happy day:D

golden blues tryouts are coming up.
im nervous. there is only like 8 spots i think :O!

then of course yeah yeah yeah.. there is chorale BUTTTT there is only 24 spots in that. and 50 girls from concert choir are tryin out. nerrrrvous!

( new years.. )

could the first day of the new year possibly get any worse?

BUSY WEEK BUSY WEEK !

monday - bball game.

tuesday- voice lessons

wednesday- gym?

thursday- bball game

friday- ugh. this man called jesus once again and four more times plus next weekend !

joy?

yeah so i went to voice lessons today and the lady is wierd. she made me feel her nasty stomach and something else i will not say. but to listen and hear ( Read more... )

i hate pretty girls. they make me sick.

and i wish i thought i was pretty half of the time.

i want my confidence back from when i was age.. 5 up till 12.

i hate not knowing who i am anymore. i want to change. im ready.

im not happy with the way i look

im not happy with my life.

and im ungreatful for almost everything

; trust me ive prayed and prayed and prayed - tried to forgot about everything bad in life and focus on the good - nothing seems to work. im sick of this and im ready to be a new me- ( Read more... )

eh this world is gay.
and i only love few of the ppl in it.

ahhhhhh. JESUS MAKE ME BETTER.
friends? make me a better person.

someone grace me with how great their lives are.. or make me feel better.