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3 days of no methadone and the clinic is closing someone kill me -
shock
i cant believe your going to marry that boy. i guess i better believe it and fast. here you are living a life and i might as well be dead. sigh no friends life or chances. just the monotony of days. well i guess i deserve what i get. i did steal happiness for a while and thats something. i just havnt been able to shake you off. i tried but nada ( Read more... ) -
27 is the traditional death yr
and looks like ill be drinking alone agaim -
I should be happy but I'm not at all
I'm clean, I have two girls falling all over me fawning on my every movement ones rich and a sugar momma ones intellectual and from newton but not a Jew. But you know what I still have god damn bunny brain, it never goes away. I try soo hard to not think of you or speak of you. I know your happy with your little poet marine or whatever he is but ( Read more... ) -
I wish I could stop loving you
But it never comes true, regardless I love you whether your with mr man or not and wish to Christ you were in my life instead or the dates I do go on occasionally. I hope yur man is happy an behaves because he doesn't know what he could lose. I lost you, and I lost everything. My sanity my self respect my dreams. None of it sans you doll -
Good morning infection
Blah, stupid reoccurring Mrsa and staph infections. Can't fucking shake em, lousy antibiotics ( Read more... ) -
I think I may have died
I tried to get all gung ho about a new life, a new shot at things. It didnt work Becky just a little too crazy, Tom just a little too lazy. I'm trying to sleep away the days. Just sleep. Maybe wake up when something better is happening, I don't know. I felt motivated for a while but on my own with no friends is no way to live. I miss Lauren, and as ( Read more... ) -
You win bunny
S I thought I would bury you. I had a lovely Amazonian girlfriend who's a model who's tall and lovely, and so ducking insane I want to die ( Read more... ) -
Bad day
Sat with my uncle and talked today sll the fight taken out of me, no idea what to do, I'm absolutely friendless I'm so sad. I just miss everything, I don't have anyone now, no Lauren, no Paige, no Heidi, no jimmy, no faz, no friends at work, no work in general ( Read more... ) -
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Reconnected with Heidi for nothing, be best friends again for almost a year and then she abandons me and so does Paige. I'm all alone. I can't take this, this pain is too much to bare, and then when I see you and your new man happy around town I die. I jut die. Knowing he is in your arms and bed,it makes me sick and ill. I don't know how to move on ( Read more... )