what a shitty start to my day. i was very late to work and had a major melt down about it. i really need to figure myself out. trying to stay happy here. i think i can i think i can...

shit. this just doesnt seem to work. at least i can still laugh though right? maybe not as easily as others. but i know i am still capable of it.

Well I have started working at the VA. I have been there for a little over a week. I really like it so far. Lots to learn, but it is all relatively easy to pick up on. Still trying to put in as many hours at the theater as I can ( Read more... )

i have to go with my mom and some friends of my grandmas to meet my grandma and her new husband tomorrow before they go to australia. i really dont want to go. or at least i had someone to go with to make it a little easier. we all dont get along the best. at least it is only to meet for lunch in centrailia. i should hopefully be home by 8 or 9. i ( Read more... )

so i started to get things organized today with rachons wonderful help. im just not sure about what a great idea it is to be organized. also, i fail at the not talking to people i dont want to, or shouldnt talk to. he emailed me today and i replied. damnit. why is it that i can remember one day why i dont want to talk to someone, but i cant the ( Read more... )

so ya it has been awhile. i was actually pretty busy for awhile there. i finished school except for the extern part which i have lined up, im just waiting to hear back about it. i moved to an apartment with rachon and erik. that has been fun. work has sucked a lot. sad part is that the customers havent been to bad. it has been the staff that has ( Read more... )

damnit. i hate making decisions. i hate having stuff to hide from others. i just don't like dealing with things. im no different from anyone else. i am just stating the fact. good lord i just want to scream. i dont want to be around anyone, but i dont really want to be alone. well actually i think i would kind of like to be alone. oh hell. when do ( Read more... )

Alrighty then. Few things on my mind, so I am just going to let it out in no order at all. I need more of a life. I have really noone that I feel I can really call and hang out with. There are a couple people, but I don't know, I'm feeling like I have overstayed (I'm pretty sure I just made that word up) with them. I'm excited about this group ( Read more... )

I am just trying to figure out when would be a good time to try to drive. I am on top of a pretty high hill. I have to open at work tomorrow, so I am not sure if I should try to drive all the way home since it is supposed to be bad weather out there. It is supposed to be warming up, but it would suck to get out there tonight, and then have to try ( Read more... )

Stupid snow. Yes I wanted it to snow so that I could get out of another day of school, but really now. Why couldn't the weather man be wrong like usual? I really wanted to go look at an apartment today, and now I can't! I am really rather pissed to know that they are thinking about keeping the fucking theater open. I don't work today, but really. ( Read more... )

So it has been awhile again. Sorry about that. Some of you have a little bit of an idea of what has been going on with me and some of you don't know at all. Basically I am over all not doing to well, but I'm in a "don't give a shit" attitude so it hasn't been showing much. The thougts in my head have been going crazy but I think that it works out ( Read more... )