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..so fucked up.
thinking over these days, i really wonder...why have i still held on. i hurt so many people, including the person i love most in my entire life. im so fucking stupid about everything that i do, he gets punched in the face for me, he fucking loves me...i hate myself...so much. i thought everything would be okay, i found someone i love...but somehow ( Read more... ) -
.x so cut my wrists and black my eyes / so i can fall asleep tonight .x
you know when you find that person, that no matter how dead you feel inside, can spark a light in your eyes, and make everything feel alright again? well, thats just what i have found. I never thought i would get over steve, but i did..and i have you to thank for this. you've made every dark corner of my world, light up with hope, and every gash in ( Read more... ) -
its life and im not even living..x
well im at brits now...yeah.. i moved out last week. couldnt really take the fighting anymore, so i kinda needed to get out. its been one crazy week.. lots of regrets, lots of memories ill never forget.. but i cant really do much about what has passed.. ive found life with you though...codie i love you, we've had so much happen to us together..and ( Read more... ) -
another day
well it was my bday yesterday...the usual bday type things went on..last day of school aswell, now the summer has hit..fucking right. a year of bullshit, now finally i can let loose and atleast try and forget the pain of this year. i cant stop thinking about him.. i never thought i could feel this way about him, but i do... and its crazy. he said ( Read more... ) -
.. today is not like yesterday ..
today was a good day. im feel so much better ever since i had my surgery, and now im recovering and such. its great:) other stuff is frusterating me though..stuff like britt not liking me and codie being friends. I dont get the big fucking deal. its not like im stealing him away from her:s he's alowed to have more than one friend thats a girl...GAH ( Read more... ) -
. a new beginning .
things are going good. few days ago, i had some problems, and had to go in for surgery early.. fucking right. i feel so much better, lost a ton of weight, and feeling energy again. i can finally start over and get my life straight again. first things first though, i had to break it off with teagan. it just wasnt working, and we never see eachother ( Read more... ) -
confusedd....
the last few days have been fucked. i hooked up with this guy teagan, who i used to like a lonnnngg time ago.. then he started liking me.. and has liked me for 3 months. the first day we hooked up, i wanted to test his honesty because lots of people said he was realllly dishonest. even though i trusted him, i gave it a shott.. i went on another msn ( Read more... ) -
* .... s w e e t ` e m o t i o n s .... *
well i just woke up so i cant say much of my day today.. never did get that job..meh what can you expect i have no experience, and 18 or more other people were interviewed. damn. im finally over him.. it took awhile, but i can move on now. i thought he was the only one for me, now its time to find another perfect guy. going to school now. -
quiz thing i got from taylors lj, then re-did.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME ( Read more... )