Ahhhh, I need a JOB!!! I have an interview next week but this process of waiting is getting to me. I have nothing to do and its causing me to lose all motivation to do ANYTHING, and then I feel worse. I cant even pick up a book right now or make a painting or drawing. Im used to being really busy and thats what makes me most productive. Thats when ( Read more... )

Wow, I havent updated in forever. I guess since I am unemployed, didnt get any e-mails or myspace messages to entertain me with this morning, I decided to go ahead and update. So here I am back in Bethesda, with the parents. Its gotten pretty bad, but mostly because I spend my days here with my 81 year old dad who is going blind, which makes me ( Read more... )

Here is a grim conclusion I came up with today: All persons and if not all, MOST, are capable of evil, immoral and brutal atrocities against others. I know. Grim. I may have mentioned this before in my previous ramblings but its not until now that I am so sure of this. Earlier tonight, I was doing some major procrastination and decided to scan my ( Read more... )

Wow, how long has it been? I think myspace has filled the procrastination/time-killing space of my days so I havent felt the need to write in here. So here is a litte summary of what has been going on ( Read more... )

Bye bye summer!! I had a wonderful summer and I was not very ready for school as I usually am during this time of year. I was having a great time at home, going into DC all the time, hanging out with new people, meeting new people and having my smoking habit go way out of control ( Read more... )

I killed two mice today. I had to kill them by putting them on top of some cardboard that had dry ice underneath in a bucket, so they die of CO 2 inhalation. Then I took them out and snapped their necks. And if that isnt gruesome enough, I had to snip off their heads with a pair of scissors and then cut down their bellies to get embryos out ( Read more... )

What I like most about summer is the freedom I have. I go to work and then I relax in the afternoon and do what I want (I started exercising a bit to keep in shape) and then I go out and actually have a social life. I love being with people and meeting new people and being deprived of that at school kills me! I dont want summer to end!! Either that ( Read more... )

A friend of mine passed away yesterday, and I feel horrible. And it makes me mad when people bring this on themselves - If youre going to get drunk and speed down the road at 100mph, then I dont know what to say to that. It makes me more angry than sad. And it hurts me most to hear my friends - who were much closer to him than me - cry and be ( Read more... )

Im so tired and I am in a horrible mood. I went out late Wednesday and Thursday while having to go to work in the morning and I couldnt sleep last night because I had a dream that I was in Lebanon and I was surrounded by bombs that were hitting closer and closer to me until there was one heading right towards me and my fear got so intense that I ( Read more... )

Friday I went to Sonar because Erik was spinning. I drove by myself not knowing who was going to be there, if anyone. Turns out many people I knew were in fact there, and I had a great time. They were playing this insanely crazy movie in the background while Erik was DJing and I want to find out what the hell it is and see it with audio ( Read more... )