So because me and surg couldn't see each other on valentines day we were gunna "celebrate" it today. I was pretty excited about this, my parents are gone and I was like "yes! house to myself and boyfriend home for the weekend" i thought it was going to be great, but it wasnt. I guess it's my own fault that it didn't go as planned because I expected ( Read more... )

It is finally 2008, this year can't possibly be worse than 2007, at least I hope so. So far it hasn't been too bad. I got back to school on the 29th, I have to buy one more book, I ordered 4 so far, ordered 2 today, and 2 last week, only have one so far. School cost way too much money ( Read more... )

Alot of the time..I feel like no one understands. It's getting tiresome. I don't care to try to tell people how I feel. Because I feel as though it is a waste of time.

So I finally got my vacation, a much, much needed one. I thought I was gunna have to go back to work today, but I didn't have to, and tommorrow I'm "on call" because I have school until 2. I gotta go back on tuesday, I work 6 to 4, its gunna be a long day, but its cool ( Read more... )

I wonder alot through out the day why I put myself through the shit that I do. I try to do too much. Sometimes I wonder if I really can work all that I do and go to school. It has been going fine until this past two weeks. Shop from home has really been picking up, and Alice has been slowing down, don't get me wrong, I think Alice is great, but in ( Read more... )

October 26,2007 will make 6 months, half a year, since my the accident. My mom got pictures today, they were pictures of his squirel, Peanut. The pictures only had his leg, or his arm in it, but it was still him. My mom was showing me the pictures and it hurt so bad. She was telling me what she took pictures of and she would point and be like "this ( Read more... )

So on wednesday it will make five months. It seems so long and so short at the same time. Some days he is all I think about. Lately I can't keep from thinking about the holidays. I just can't believe we wont be taking the traditional car rides with each other, where we tell each other the things that the parents dont know about. Just the prime ( Read more... )

I feel at times like he doesnt even care. he was telling me that he might come down tomarrow but he cant tell me for sure, he says hes going to decide tonight, i asked him why tonight and he said he didnt know, he just wanted to keep an eye out. soo to me that means hes waiting for something better to come up. wouldnt you think that im a good ( Read more... )

Honestly,I thought I could handle this, I thought I was strong enough to take on the fucking world, but I'm not. I can only take so much, I can only lose so much before nothing is left. I feel as though theres no one I can trust and open up to anymore. I have never told anyone to their face how I really feel, I don't have the ability to open up to ( Read more... )

I can't take another day hearing about other peoples drama, I dont care who it is, I don't want to hear another complaint, I spent my whole day just trying to avoid everyone because I just couldn't take another minute of hearing everyone elses problems. I didn't even really talk to alice because i know she was going to complain about something and ( Read more... )