for everyday that you are upset, there will be a day i tried my best to make you laugh ( Read more... )

all the thousands of reasons i want to be near you.
all the thousands of ways i want to be closer.
all the flaws, the grace, the awkward pace.
are overshadowed by just one issue.
"i gave you my heart and you gave me a fuckin' pen!"

"Hello miss, youll never see this, what a horrible way to start a letter. Im writitng because you are beautiful. This was this long drawn out letter, that explained what ive done and how i feel, but it began and ended the same....im writing because you're beautiful. I cut out the muck, the extra stuff that seemed to be more persuasion and me trying ( Read more... )

"let us let go of the us we remember.
we can bend the rules, get past it together.
i look forward to you like i look for rainy weather.
from the view that i have things can only get better."

written on a mcdonalds wrapper at 8 this morning.

its like hating the water and living on the beach.
i want more than anything to let her know my needs.
i want to break things down so they're easy to see.
instead ill keep my feeling and better parts locked up, lost key.
the truth is i love the ocean and the ocean breeze.
im just so afraid of being alone in believing,

your eyes like porcelain ( Read more... )

i dont want to feel this.
the anxiety of new feelings.
felt myself become unappealing.
feel my heart sink.
why would she love me.
i hate to feel like this.

i woke up after a wonderful but oddly placed dream.
it fits recent themes.
but it seemed like a scheme to make things seem...well...easy.
like it was all breezy through the "first" list.
im off to live.
i hope to someday to see my dreams; true.
with any such luck, with you.

i tried to convince myself it wasn't true ( Read more... )

lets just ride this out as long as we can.
grow close as friends, learn to trust and then....
trip, fall, and never ever get out again.
is somedays the chase will end.
right now, i feel privileged just to call you friend.