it's never gonna happen

and suddenly, something falls into your lap and it seems as though all that waiting might just be worth it, even though you are completely hesitant and secretly feel guilty for feeling good. but despite those things, you allow yourself just a second to see even the slightest glimmer of it--of the overcoming excitement that is, finally, reflected ( Read more... )

as hard as i try, i am an anti socialite at heart, and i don't think there's any way around it. i'm just not cut out for these things.

i haven't updated in ages. most of the time i think it's just unnecessary, but that "last update: 3 weeks ago" notification keeps glaring at me ( Read more... )

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I am a planner ( Read more... )

As she laughed I was aware of becoming involved in her laughter and being part of it, until her teeth were only accidental stars with a talent for squad-drill. I was drawn in by short gasps, inhaled at each momentary recovery, lost finally in the dark caverns of her throat, bruised by the ripple of unseen muscles. An elderly waiter with trembling ( Read more... )

well, instead of getting too caught up in reviewing the events of today, I think I am just going to go to bed happy in the fact that I had a great birthday, surrounded by the people I care about most ( Read more... )

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so much to do and so little time. every time I come to England I realize there's such a huge part of me I have yet to discover; I want be able to really get to know my family and not feel so rushed to fit everything into a 10 day trip. Hopefully in a year I won't be bound by school and work restraints and I can take a bit more time to travel. ( Read more... )