Fire & Water: Struggling with Bipolar Disorder

But depression is not a sudden disaster. It is more like a cancer: At first its tumorous mass is not even noticeable to the careful eye, and then one day-wham!-there is a huge, deadly seven-pound lump lodged in your brain or your stomach or your shoulder blade, and this things that your own body has ( Read more... )

ashley and i were flipping through my photos tonight, and i came across a picture I had forgotten existed. it was brandon and eric sitting in the back of my car having a moment. brandon's wearing my sunglasses, the mae t-shirt i got him, the hat i stole and wore at work for two weeks, and a very beautiful smile that i had caused. my response to ( Read more... )

i am obsessed with the idea of getting a puppy.
like, seriously. i'm starting to be concerned that i won't be able to control myself.
i'm thinking of maybe asking for one for graduation.
...or buying one for myself for graduation.

i already decided to name it eloise or franny.
this is so not a good thing for me to be thinking about.

i ate too many bagel bites and cookie dough and now i feel like i am going to vomit like so much volleyball. i have too many things to do that i don't want to do to do this week. it seems almost criminal to have 2 papers, a test, and a lab all on one day. i've been so tired lately. i've been crying a lot lately, too, which is abnormal to say ( Read more... )

damn it. the freaking chili cook-off is the weekend of my mom's hysterectomy. this is really disappointing because i wanted to see if my dad wanted to go so there would be some excuse for us to spend time together. i don't even care about any of the bands. i don't really even like any of the bands. but i really like chili. and i really like ( Read more... )

My life would be infinitely better if ( Read more... )

Is this what a toy feels like
When its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear
But you forget to wind

"I'm a vapid narcissist when you mix me with alcohol. I know this."
-Meredith, Grey's Anatomy

"Just so you know, I take issue with her salmon colored scrubs. What self-respecting surgeon wears salmon colored scrubs?"
-Izzie, Grey's Anatomy

15. Blues Traveler ( Read more... )

In about 5 hours it will be one of my best un-friend's 21st birthday, and each hour that passes makes me more and more depressed about the fact that it has almost been 3 months since I have seen or spoken to him. I don't know when I'm going to get over this. I don't know how I'm going to get over this. It is eerily familiar, this feeling of the ( Read more... )