sometimes i just dont believe it. i simply cannot fathom that most of the things that have happened to me were actually real. its like i've been wandering through parallel universes for my entire existence and never settled in one or the other. like i'm stuck in that tv show, quantum leap ( Read more... )

hey kids. i havent looked in this journal in forever. but now i'm printing out all of my old journals. i'm going to combine them with memories and poetry and artwork and make them into a book. i've got all of one journal printed, adn about 4 months on this one. havent even started the new one yet. there is only so much printing out even the ( Read more... )

hi guys! i just got curious and came back to my old lj where i have so much more histoy, and so many more friends. gosh its been forever. whats crackalackin yall ( Read more... )

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insert "i just wanna be mad for a while" here

ok. well. i've been downstairs for 45 mins smoking every last cigarette i could find. made myself sick to tell the gods honest truth. but the time was not wasted. i have realized conciously something i've known in the back of my mind all along. the truth is, that when i was told all my life that one cannot be really loved until one loves theirself ( Read more... )

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well, how bout that. i just read my lj entries from the days around the time my grandmother died. i am crying. i have been crying all day. james upset me. so i cried thorugh dinner. then my mom called adn though she didnt say anything about it, it got me wondering wether my grandmother had died on april first or may first. i thought it was may. so ( Read more... )

so i had this crazy dream last night. i was sitting with james at some play or something troy state was doing. and there were two seats in front of us. and griff walked up, dressed in a black silk button down shirt and black slacks and he was holding the hand of a person in a tight blue sweater and black pants. and i looked up and the person was a ( Read more... )