here it is. its been about a year since i left an entry. crazy. im in college now. i tell everyone its going great. but  its a lil rough. i wanna quit ma job at QD but i gotta find a job up here first and thats challenging. i know everything will be fine but its just scary. im afraid im not gonna meet anyone or ....iunno.  this is the first time i ( Read more... )

so......its abot 10:40 seems like every day i get more tired. for the first time in like 5 months i went and hung out wit andrew, we went to a party down the street from my house. it was fun. i hung out wit a bunch of drunk mexicans and there cuzins. then i had to go to church. the next morning....that was interreseting.
so i decided to play soccer ( Read more... )

beth

i know its too late now to change anything, you've moved on you have a nice boyfriend who seems to care about you clearly the way i couldnt. i dont know  what happened to us, i really dont, but i love you
you told me that you could have been mine if i had of fought for you..who? who would i have fought? justin? he doesnt care. justin could not ( Read more... )

so its 4 in the morning, i just got back from the hospital.....beth had an anxsioty (s.p?) attack or somethin but no one knew what was wrong wit her. i was willing to sit there for days until she was better. if thats not love ....what is? i sat there thinkin that maybe i just gave up cuz i didnt want to work at it and kept sayin.. "i dnt want to ( Read more... )

so i just got back from camp. jesus camp as tina and nikki calls it, and its weird. you think about the things u say ur gonna do when u get home and emmediately ur distracted....i have bad habits, we all do but getting outta those is the hard part....i guess i can kinda say im a changed man...but who doesnt change once in awhile? i miss everyone ( Read more... )

i still love you...............

its weird....thats the only way to explain it.......it shouldnt be but it is....everyone i knew walked in and suddenly the world stopped.. its like know one knew me anymore....it made me sick kinda... jelousy? iunno honestly, im so mixed up i guess i just never thought she'd move on so fast... i cant talk to her cuz she has no phone, not to mention ( Read more... )

so here it is... history hAS  a way of proving that nothing lasts forever...but has the capabilities of starting again at a later date....im not so sur ewat ti think of that..june 28 2006 is when it ended....weird huh? yea....im not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing....i guess like all things only time can tell i guess now i have to face ( Read more... )

been awhile ( Read more... )

yea so, its almost 12....tonight kinda sucked.. everything seems so pointless now, i think we make progres and boom it blows up in ma face... sux. at the same time im kinda like WTFE cuz i kno god will take care of everything.. or will he? somethings we just gotta do for ourselves..is this one of them? if so what needs to be done? iunno...i reall ( Read more... )