i hate computers. the one time i fucking take the time to write an long entry, the fucking computer shuts down. fuck this.

I don't know why that changed everything, but it did. And I'm okay with it. I'm going to fight for this.. which is new for me. I love him.

And I'll be fine.

I'm always fine.

ps.
i think i may die of caffeine overdose today

I'm sitting here, at 4:27 in the morning, at work ( Read more... )

i've written like 7 different things and erased all of them. it doesnt matter. i am so internal sometimes. i just dont talk. but in my head i never shut up.
do you ever feel like you watch yourself live?

so drunk. ziggy scratheched my stomach. it hurt. kind of blleeeding but not htat bad. piano man rocked. i love zach. we're saving up to go to californai and while we're there we're gonna go to disneyland and i'm excited. i love you. snf you snf uyou nsnf you. wow ( Read more... )

I left you a voicemail but I just want to confirm that if you’d like to do lunch or dinner, I’m happy to answer as best I can, any questions you have.  I feel very strongly that your dad is guilty as well as your mom in making your life difficult.  Your dad and I have had numerous heated discussions over things he has said or done to you.  You may ( Read more... )

i can't deal with being poor anymore. i feel like just curling up in a ball and not dealing with the real world.

I think I've finally come to terms with things. (Emily I'm watching your mom leave refinery right now.. haha.. I'm a creep)
But I talked to some people and I think I've finally found that closure I've desperately been seeking.. on many accounts.
I think i'm finally okay with my life and the choices I've made. I don't think they're the smarted ( Read more... )

why am i always poor? i don't get how that happens. i get paid at parkland today.. but my check is going to be like 40 bucks.. happy mother's day.... not. whatever, i think i'm going to take a loan out. and talk to this lady at my mom's bank to help me get my finances in order, because if i don't start keeping track and learn out to plan my ( Read more... )

I promised you the world again ( Read more... )