i know now.. i can't survive with out this... even though we've been friends for quite sometime i know nothing can hold this together.. keeping contact will be the hardest thing for us.. but i finally figured it out... and this song explains it all ( Read more... )

my mood is a little lighter.. i think i am bipolar... the hardest part is grinning my white teeth and laughing to act like im having a good time..

i rescued you from a place you hated, but most people would love to be at... i hope you thank me when u read this..
im trapped............

im pretty much drained and hate life right now.. so i have a few exciting things coming up.. band is doing really well.. might get a new job.. finishing my tattoo on tuesday.. may be an extra in a hawthorne video who knows for sure yet.. its.. 2 a.m. i need to quit staying up so late and i need to start getting things in gear for this coming fall ( Read more... )

im down down down... i feel so low right now.. i am selfish and stupid and dont deserve anything.. i hate my self... i would expose every dark secret i know.. just to feel better about myself.. im a horrible person.. i wish i were dreaming a lie and wake up to the truth... i hate.. and i am wrong for hating... when i redicule the world i belittle

i'm rethinking about alot of old things and alot of people from my past...

i think i would again if i could.. i miss u alot

today was a good day after work... i woke up really tired and didnt want to do anything.. today was also johanna last day here.. ^sniff^ she comes but once a year. but i really hope i get to go visit her sometime...
okay i havent updated in forever school is coming to an end like everything else right now.. i wish i wasnt so emotional about

im on top of the world. when i think all is well ( Read more... )

tonight we recorded one song.. and it sounds really good.. iam exstatic. we got off to a rocky start and then it was flowing smoothly.. these guys in the band our awesome.. there great people.. first show june 17th with staple, goodwen and sides of the north ( Read more... )

if i hated the world? feared for the future? think about dying alot.? not killing myself just thinking of ways that i could die..and i have trust issues which alot were broken this week.. is it wrong to feel wronged? is it wrong to be upset..? is it wrong to want to marry young ( Read more... )

pick me up please im behind in the memory of you.. im a glance of the on going repetitious anomaly.. burning the searing space and time that we had existed only to make it better and easier for me to forget you... twelve months and a half.. i would make seem like a millennium, comes to a mear memory bank of un forgetful and unforgiving heart ache ( Read more... )