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Wade Through The Depths
It's been a while. Guess I'm kind of making the rounds in dredging up the past. Finally got around to updating Prosebox and had my Open Diary restored. It's not as appealing to me as it would have been even three years ago, when I last updated this. I'm becoming a different person now. Not totally there yet, but it's the change I've been striving ( Read more... ) -
Face Yourself
Huh. Livejournal is still around. And apparently really popular in Russia. Who would have figured ( Read more... ) -
Fade Away Again
Well, I'm still here. I was supposed to move to Portland with a friend in July to fulfill a dream of ten years and start a band. Then it was going to be June. Then it didn't happen at all, and he backed out. I was mad, quite mad. I got over it. I made due to the best of my ability. I got promoted, more or less, twice at work. I still don't make a ( Read more... ) -
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I went on a blind date earlier, I suppose. It was someone from a dating site. I've met a couple girls off of them, and basically nothing ever happened. I had talked to this woman for a couple weeks on the site, and then some texting. She no-showed. Didn't reply to me the day of or day before. Not sure what happened, and I doubt I will learn. She ( Read more... ) -
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She's seeing someone else. She says she was never that into me. Inevitability, but still horrible to deal with. I feel like throwing up, what the hell is wrong with me? This is the part where I question how everything ended, and question her. I need to take it at face value, because I will never know for sure. We will lose touch, and I will never ( Read more... ) -
Death of an Old Self
My heart is broken. Crushed and torn asunder. My eyes well up, and I encourage the tears, but it doesn't happen. I rarely cry, I trained myself not to long ago. They're not tears of despair, or sadness. They are tears of pain, of rage. I'm so frustrated. I feel like I was lied to growing up. I was told, like we all were, to treat others as you wish ( Read more... ) -
Death & Rebirth
I've recently realized that things aren't working. My life is not working. I am not working. For the past year and a half-ish, I tried to be someone else to get away from my failures. Someone who didn't care about love, or ever finding someone, because I've never been able to. Someone who was logical and cold, because being emotive and not being ( Read more... ) -
Spiral
Man, I haven't written in this thing in a while ( Read more... ) -
Gahaha
So...I'm moving back to Medford. Again.