... it is quite evident that I was completely out of sorts. I knew I was out of line, but I could never control it. I also never knew why I did the things I did, why I felt the way I felt, why I was... so wretched ( Read more... )

Ok, I posted recently that I would have a new LJ Screen name ( Read more... )

“Pretty”
Welling up behind my eyes...
Speaking a truth that turns into lies
Crashing through glass in my mind
Hiding behind transparent walls that I find
Stepping barefoot over the shards that turn red
Picking them up and smashing them into my head
I never could be beautiful... I needed a new face ( Read more... )

Well, I guess I am sort of happy for once. Sure everything has gone wrong, but... I see past that for right now ( Read more... )

Today was the best day I ever had, followed closely by one of the worst ( Read more... )

Fuck it, I don't fucking care anymore... Nothing is worth anything anymore... Fuck you all, none of you care. Why do I fucking bother?

I feel so alone...

Added afterwards:
Ok, I went to work... It was boring. 5-9. Ugh... I feel numb right now... No emotion, which is better than being depressed. I still feel alone, but... Numb.

Today in a nutshell ( Read more... )

Another boring day. I went to school, then worked from 6-10. Bah, so boring. I will be out Saturday at the mall meeting someone. Wish me luck.

Er, today was... Eventful yet not. I went to school for a normal day... Normal shit. At lunch, it was fun. Frankie sat with Mike and me, and we had a nice conversation. A first of that much time, which was very cool. After school, all 3 of us went to Lakeside Mall. We hung out there for a couple hours, and I drove like a psycho. We went to my mom's ( Read more... )

Bah, what the hell is going on?

So many people are fucking me over, but so many are actually caring about me... I am not fucking used to this... No one ever cared before... How do I deal with it? I just don't know...

I talked to Frankie, and... All I can say is wow, she is great... I can't believe it. Read this:
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