tickled fink ( Read more... )

there is a hole in my chest about the size of a brick ( Read more... )

holy shit, have i totally forsaken livejournal or what?? this is the first time i've been on this thing in at LEAST a month. and that was simply because i used it for the spell-checker option. but then tonight i was clued into the fact that mark hurley wrote a little something about his new little woman so i started reading bits and pieces of ( Read more... )

this morning i woke up relatively early. i'm house-sitting for a family that lives 1/2 a block from the video store and it's a cozy-enough place, but i just can't seem to sleep well there. so after rolling over about 45 times, i pulled myself out of bed long before i had to be up, put on the same pants i've worn for the last week and stumbled ( Read more... )

i went to bed last night with a lot of anger. anger towards my job, and things that were going wrong against my will. anger towards the people in my life who were taking more than they were giving only because i was allowing it. anger. so i had arguments in my head. the kind of arguments that i don't have enough courage to have out loud. i raged. i ( Read more... )

laying next to miles last night i waited to hear his breathing change. he had a nasty sounding cough, and was all-around restless which was how i had ended up in bed with him in the first place. finally he settled and eventually fell asleep. as i was trying to figure out how to get up without waking him i heard a small voice yelling my name in a ( Read more... )

help me ( Read more... )

walking through wallingford late last night i was mad. my inner monologue tried it's best to put a label on it. because i'm prone to think that just because i know why something is how it is then it'll be easier to change. (i have just recently realized this. so recently in fact, that it hasn't fully registered as bullshit yet.) but i couldn' ( Read more... )

a large, dead rat was just removed from under the stove in my kitchen ( Read more... )

melissa and i lost touch shortly after i left vermont and the summer of 2003 behind. one or both of us had gotten different cell phones and had never exchanged email addresses. but somehow we were reconnected. a go-between found me and gave my information to her. shortly thereafter she drove up from orlando to meet me in savannah where i was ( Read more... )