*sighs ( Read more... )

i stayed up way to late this morning and couldnt get up when i needed to help someone else.feel like shiTT for it.dont really wanna go home tonight.room mate is having birthday party tonight so i guess im obligated, however im not in a party mood at all right now. kinda can't wait till my next day off to see if i can motivate enough to not just eat ( Read more... )

i hate being stressed at work.that being said i was having a pretty decent day till i started thinking about current events. basicaly people don't seem to respect me,my things and my space. life doesnt pay out the way i thought it would have for trying to ALWAYS do something nice or be helpfull. ive thought myself into a extremely bad headache at ( Read more... )

vroom vrooom.brrrrrrmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm BOOM.... put put put , sputter... kerchunk put dsghaeirughaweltuhqrio brrrrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmm ( Read more... )

as i sit here at work on my lunch eating beef jerky(thanks to mark for the food run) i look back in my mind and reflect on the energy i release. my aura is, by nature, EXTREMELY unstable. the control i have talked about in the past entry and try to continue to exert hasn't been the right sort of avenue for the energy i put into it. questionable ( Read more... )

long long ago in a land akin to this, i spent hours if not days searching. my quest was only to begin though.these summer days remind me of that time. a time when i remember blooming into something different.its all different now though, having been pollenated early on and left to flower. growing didn't work quiet right though. my mind has been ( Read more... )

hmmm the place look a bit dusty ( Read more... )

haha i say. sometimes the sun makes me even weirder than i normally think i am ( Read more... )

wow dam i mean fuck... crazy i tell you

anyways my legs and hell my whole body hurts sooo good right now. its in the mass muscle failure moment and im thinking of rewarding it with tea and maybe a bath but on the other hand i could just have some coffee and go train some more. really thinking about training here.

its weird to me i think to feel as alone as i feel. its even stranger to wander back on the paths that got me here.the understanding seams harder to grasp than the question im asking and the vagueness always wins...