life is weird ( Read more... )

In the library at 3:30 in the morning. Thank god for that whole going 24 hours at the end of the semester thing. I'm in here trying to finish a paper that's due tomorrow. 18-20 fuckin pages. A lot of research. It's a bitch. But I have about 14 pages now, it's just about adding details and making it more cohesive. Definitely sucks ( Read more... )

so my aunt is in the hospital with pneumonia. apparently her left lung is really badly infected and there's just a lot of fluid in it. and i'm pretty worried. she's been sick so much lately, her health just hasn't been good. and she doesn't really seem to be getting better. if anybody even reads this if you would keep her in your prayers/thoughts i ( Read more... )

so i had my first day of work for charleston county ems yesterday. it was mostly slow, so i got a chance to learn where things were on the truck. we did have two calls however. the first was a 13 year old girl who tried to hang herself. that was kind of intense at first. when we got there the firefighters were bagging her. according to her ( Read more... )

i got the fuckin job! i am officially an emt for charleston county ems. i'm hella excited. it's gonna be alot of fun. and interesting and exciting. and difficult at times, i know, but definitely worth it. i'm going to get to help a lot of people. and i start my emt-intermediate class tomorrow. this time next year hopefully i'll be working for ( Read more... )

HOLY FUCKING SHIT I'M EXCITED ( Read more... )

so i never update anymore. so much has happened. so much is happening. i'm in love, happy sometimes, depressed others. that's life ( Read more... )

sooo, i haven't posted in awhile, but i really fucking need to vent. on sunday morning i woke up to discover that somebody had slashed my front tires. this is the third time in the past month that somebody has fucked with my car and i'm fucking furious. you better believe if i figure out who's doing it i will fucking kill them and i have 3 ( Read more... )

sooooo, i'm feeling apathetic again. vaguely depressed. at times. it's just that i cannot wait to get out of this place, to graduate and join the peace corps. to leave for 27 fucking months. which means, no matter what that i must not be happy. because if i was happy why the fuck would i want to leave everything i know and love for 27 months ( Read more... )

i'm pretty freaking bored. hence i'm actually updating. something i never do anymore. i need to schedule an appointment with my counsellor because things are really starting to get out of hand at times. yeah. i wish i knew what i could do to make everything right, but i just have no idea. i feel like things are getting kind of destructive at ( Read more... )