When I used to watch the twins, I would sneak into their room once they had fallen asleep just to watch them.  They were beautiful, angelic creatures. Mesmerizing.  Sometimes I would take one and settle down on the couch with them, just to feel them cozy up against me; the solid feeling of them in my arms.  The world ceased to exist except for us ( Read more... )

Having a tough time keeping on the happy face this week.  Yesterday was Matthew's birthday and a few days before that was Caleb's.  Been having trouble falling asleep lately because I keep thinking of them ( Read more... )

I first met Nate when I was 11 years old, trying out the internet for the first time.  It was on CompuServe, in a chat room called the Holodeck.  I thought it was a cool name because I had seen Star Trek a few times on TV and maybe one or two of the old movies when I was younger.  Since everyone else in there had Star Trek names, I went with Deanna ( Read more... )

Yesterday I was in my car getting ready to leave for work.  I wanted to find my Zune so I could plug it in and get my fix of Breaking Dawn (Twilight Saga book 4, for those of you not in the know) so I grabbed my bag off of the passenger seat and started rummaging around blindly within it.  And by bag, I mean purse.  It really, truly is a purse and ( Read more... )

I taught my frogs to croak on command.

Nuff said.

I hate the holidays with a passion.  Absolutely abhore them.  This is all, naturally, thanks to my mother for also hating the holidays and letting me know every year how much she disliked them.  Her reasons (and now my reasons as well) are due to our lack of family.  It was just always my mother and myself at home and while I was growing up we ( Read more... )

Fortunately it has been a much better past few days.  Life has seemed to calm down a bit, and although there is still plenty of confusion and chaos in my own little world, the gods seem to be giving me an emotional break for a time ( Read more... )

So what started all of this recent insanity on my part ( Read more... )

I think the gods take pleasure in seeing how far I can go before I crack into a million pieces.  My entire life has been spent taking care of the tiny fissures spreading across my body; repairing them, mending them, all while trying to catch new ones before they can be added ( Read more... )

So we've had a lot of things happen in my household since my last post.

1) My mother came and visited for NINE WHOLE DAYS.  For those of you out there that know me, you understand that my mother and I can't occupy the same space for more than 3 days before we try to kill each other.  Strangely, we survived the long visit and she became somewhat ( Read more... )