Is this where I am in my life? Is this who i am all grown up? Is this me? Am I All grown up? Might have to ponder that one longer.
I guess this is where I am. But how and when did I get here? Have I always been on this road? Have I always been here?
Ever wonder what chapter you are in your own book? You know what book. The one titled "my life. The ( Read more... )

I'm tires of just making ends meet. I'm so very unimpressed with the idea that I haven't gotten a raise in over 3years. I work hard and do my job well. I can barely afford to pay what little I do to contribute to my family. I pay my student loans and for daycare. That's it. I bought groceries this week and now can't afford daycare this week. ( Read more... )

I'm not perfect. Never have been, never will be ( Read more... )

So I was looking online for another job and there is nothing... I'm bummed about where I am. I enjoy so much what I do. I enjoy helping my customers and working on design. I do wish I could design more. I really am going through another phase where I hate where I'm working.(All caused by another meeting with the owner who is lashing out at us ( Read more... )

So we're trying to sell our house in hopes of buying another one. We entered into a contract to buy on the condition we sell our house. Same town, just bigger house. It has 4 bedrooms, and a dining room, basement, 1 1/2 baths, mother-in-law apartment that is already rented and almost an acre of land which is almost unheard of in Barre. Quite nice ( Read more... )

I went to a painting class today that Michael signed me ip for taught by a bob Ross certified teacher. Holy awesome. I haven't painted in a while and it was so nice to paint! Was out of my comfort zone of painting using oils and using another painting as a go by rather than a picture like I would do on my own but non he less awesome and a grey ( Read more... )

So Lily and I went to her first friends birthday party. Rosie from daycare turned 2. I was kinda nervous as I don't know her mom well. But I knew lily would have fun. I just don't know how to be social and I'm kinda shy around people I don't know. I felt bad for rosie's mom shavon. She expected more people and only 3 people and myself plus kids ( Read more... )

Just getting ready for bed soon. I feel like an old lady now a days. Tired. Body aching. Tired. Thinking about taking a relaxing bath to sooth my knees. Told you... Old lady.
Been thinking a lot about my dad lately. How much I miss him and wish he could see lily and all the silly things she does. Like to igbt when she insisted eating her pizza ( Read more... )

Livej has an app! Much easier to get out my thoughts while laying in bed. Trying to sleep. Hoping for sleep. Ahh to get more than 5 hours would be... Gosh I don't think I even know!

More to come... Plenty of thoughts. Right now time to work on thAt sleep thing. Just was too excited to find the app. Don't know why I didn't think to look sooner!

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Time is just going by so fast. Although some days are seem forever long at work, by the time I get home from getting Lily, make dinner, eat, bath her, get her to bed... it's 8pm and I'm exhausted and wonder where the time went. I just am so exhausted all the time now. I don't have the energy to do laundry dishes or simply clean up. I just want to ( Read more... )