I shall cut this... just like I cut...myself.....

JUST LETTING YOU KNOW: TRIGGERS MAAAJOR TRIGGERS UNDER THE CUT:
( meh )

it's almost awkward having someone actually WANT to take care... both of me and about me...
I've never had that... So I feel guilty, almost...

I'm not going to work tomorrow. It's this huge, long schpiel, and I shall tell it to you now ( Read more... )

Could I possibly be falling for him..? Well, quite frankly, I'm not so sure ( Read more... )

Well, a lot of things just... happened... today.
My "free" place, is no longer free... after just a month...
My "life" is really no life at all... Just existence....
And suddenly I feel like everything I have is being pulled out from beneath me.... Not swift, no, that'd be too easy. But slowly..... Like ice, thinning under my feet.
I'm afraid that soon ( Read more... )

Well, today, I worked out, Did a whole bunch of nothing!!, and did some more NOTHING!!!!!!
I want to feel better about my life.
I want to feel better about my body.
I want to just feel better in general...

There's really nothing to post, besides the fact that (warning, I'm too lazy to post a cut...) I hadn't eaten in about a week, and then today I just ( Read more... )

Tomorrow, I have to go see my psychiatrist. UGH.
It will be painful. And annoying. Because he just sees me as a kid.
He was honestly surprised that I was 19, three months ago, when I saw him last. He didn't say he was surprised, but the look on his face said it all: That he was shocked that I even was still alive.

( Cut, just in case. WARNING TRIGGERS )

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There aren't really words to describe. . . So....
( cut--I'm outta my head... )

Reconsidering. . . Perhaps, maybe, I should start seeing a therapist. Someone I like. someone I can trust ( Read more... )