See me
Feel me
Touch me
Heal me

It's amazing how The Who captured much of the struggle of the chronic life in those few words.

And perhaps much of the struggle of life in general really.

so a year and 3months later, and a a whole lot of shit happening, some awesome, some heart-braking, I am back...

the absence can be explained by my constant access to my own kitchen, the catharsis of choice.  but now it has gone, and it looks like I need back my old place to purge.  it does a body good. not mention what it does for the soul.

It ( Read more... )

saw my results and my TSH level had been running between 2.0-2.6 and now it is 5.03.  almost double in less than 6months.  so definitely hypothyroid (your body produces more TSH to compensate for other things that are low.  hence hypo even though the TSH level is high ( Read more... )

Dear Insurance agent,
( but perhaps not done so bitchingly )

Dear Insurance Company,

( cut for language )

It's been a very long couple of weeks.  I'm prepping for the final days to finally move in with Mike.  We get out keys on Thursday, the truck Friday and should be done with the unload into the new place early Saturday.  Woohoo- but damn if I didn't love this man I am not sure if I would have been up to all this.

Long story about the move short- even ( Read more... )

but I've been swimming for the past week and a half. granted it is only 10-15mins but I am trying not to incite a full flare up. i know doing new things can really throw me off a lot so i have purposely set limits to how much i can do. figured once my body adjusts i can start adding in more ( Read more... )

or at least greatly diminishes your ability to deal with anything well.

so last night was mentally and emotionally killer, still kind of stuck in it ---- mostly for unexplainable reasons that the most i can contribute them to is complete physical exhaustion and mental/emotional faculties being worn to the core as a result.

but thankfully i have ( Read more... )

i actually swum 5-7 laps in the pool yesterday. the colder water pool no less.  lest you mock the short effort it is definitely a victory ( Read more... )

 and I wish taking off all my clothes would help ( Read more... )