[Fanfic] Insomnia; Chapter 13
Title: Insomnia
Chapter: 13/??
Past Chapters: 01| 02| 03| 04| 05| 06| 07| 08| 09| 10| 11| 12
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: Oh my goodness! I've finally finished typing up this chapter! Hooray for me! And happiness to you all, my wonderful readers!<3 8D And I'm sorry I haven't updated in such a long time! But today I was able to find some time and actually get stuff written! So yayhoo! Kekekeke. xD And guess what?! My volleyball season is over in two weeks or so, so that means my updating pace may pick up a little after the 15th of October! Awesome, isn't it? (: So anyways, now you guys can go read! Enjoy this chapter because I think there's a few exciting things that happen! 8D LOL. Note: this is kind of an intense chappie? xD
Ryeowook is asked to watch over Kyuhyun for the next few days, against Yesung’s will. He did not want Ryeowook to watch over Kyuhyun. He knows what the band members are trying to do and even though he wants to object to the idea, he can’t because it’ll make Ryeowook curious. And if Ryeowook is curious, it won’t be good, so he acts as if everything is fine and goes to finish his schedule for the day.
~@~
Kyuhyun’s sleeping with a look of pain on his face. Ryeowook frowns and checks his temperature. It’s still high as ever, so he gets up to go rewet the damp cloth. He comes back a minute later and sits in his same spot on the bed beside the ill boy. He is taken aback when he’s about to place the cool cloth on Kyuhyun’s forehead and notices a few stray tears slipping through Kyuhyun’s lidded eyes. In quick, but soft motions, he pushes away the magnae’s wet bangs that are plastered to his forehead and places the wet cloth on Kyuhyun’s forehead. Just shortly afterwards he brings down a hand and carefully wipes away Kyuhyun’s tears with his delicate fingers.
“Kyuhyun are you okay…?” Ryeowook whispers with much concern.
He waits awhile, but receives no reply. Already knowing that Kyuhyun is asleep, he feels stupid for even asking. He can’t help himself from feeling the need to protect Kyuhyun, and make sure he becomes healthy and well again. He’s not sure why he’s feeling this way, but he’s willing to find out sometime soon. He sighs and stares down at the sleeping boy, without realizing it his hand begins caressing Kyuhyun’s cheek.
“Why do I do this, Kyuhyun…?” Ryeowook whispers.
~@~
Kibum walks into his room and catches Yesung sitting on his bed. His eyes are wide. What’s he doing here? The older of the two looks up and smiles a little up at the younger one. Kibum is lost and is unsure of what Yesung is up to. He takes his time to put his things away and can’t help but feel uncomfortable with the man’s gaze following his every move. He takes a seat beside Yesung, giving them space. They’re stuck in an unusual silence until Kibum is tired.
“Hyung, I want to sleep. I’m tired.” He mumbles.
Yesung looks at him and frowns a little.
“Kibum, can we talk?”
“About what? We could’ve talked weeks ago.” Kibum says tiredly.
“I know, but… can you just hear me out?” Yesung begs.
Kibum wishes he could say no, but he wants to hear what his hyung wants to say, and so he listens.
“I know you love me and I mean a lot to you, but… I’m sorry. I’m with Ryeowook now. I can’t just-”
Kibum doesn’t need to hear anymore. He’s tired of hearing the same words come out of the man’s mouth.
“He’s not yours! How many times… how many times do I have to ask you to accept that? He belongs with Kyuhyun, Yesung… They belong together. Just… let him go. Kyuhyun’s hurting as much as I am! We’re both hurting because of you!” Kibum cries out loud. “Stop telling me you’re sorry! Stop telling me you know I love you!”
Yesung just stares at him, once again speechless. Kibum realizes that he’s never going to get a response from him.
“Can you leave me alone now? I’m tired.” Kibum asks.
“I’m sorry,” Yesung nods.
Kibum watches as he gets up and goes out of his room, behind his door. He lies down on his bed and curls into a ball. Tears skid across his face and fall onto the snow white pillow.
“I love you, you idiot…” Kibum whispers to no one.
~@~
Yesung is walking to his and Ryeowook’s room, but stops when he passes Sungmin’s and Kyuhyun’s room. He takes a peek through the crack of the door and doorframe. He frowns when he sees Ryeowook caress Kyuhyun’s face though. He wants to walk in, but feels too hurt to move. His hand on the door slightly gives way, causing the door to open a little more and creak. He takes a quick step away from the the door and rushes his way to his room. Why is it him?
~@~
Ryeowook hears a creak and quickly removes his hand from Kyuhyun’s face. He looks up at the door and sees that the door had been pushed further open. He wonders who it is, but seeing that no one is planning on coming in, he calms himself down and looks down at Kyuhyun again. He gets up and goes to look out into the hallway. He sees no one and decides to shut the door due to the loud buzzing coming from Donghae and Eunhyuk’s videogame.
He walks back to Kyuhyun’s bed and lies down beside him with the little space he had. He hums that unknown song once again and before he knows it, he’s singing to it. As he continues to sing, he starts to wonder. Where have I heard this song? How do I even know it? Does it mean something? He finishes it and frowns. He was tired. Very tired. He feels his eye lids start to close and then he’s slipping into a peaceful darkness. But before he did he had one last thought: Why is it, that I can fall asleep so easily beside him?
~@~
Eeteuk yells at Eunhyuk and Donghae for being too noisy. It was late and he and many of the others were tired. The rest never really understood why Eunhyuk and Donghae could just keep going even when they were exhausted. But he wasn’t going to find out anyways. The two boys pout like puppies and turn off their game. They drag their feet heavily on the floors to their shared room. Eeteuk just laughs at them.
“Those two,” he smiles.
He remembers he wants to check on Kyuhyun and Ryeowook, so he starts walking to the room they were in. He makes sure not to make any noise when he opens the door. He’s shocked to see Ryeowook asleep beside Kyuhyun, squished on the small twin sized bed. But nonetheless he smiles at the scene because it reminds him of the past when KyuWook used to be together-happily together. He stares at the sweet scene.
“Hey…”
Eeteuk becomes a little startled when he feels Kangin’s hushed greeting against his ear and his big arms wrapping around his thin frame. He turns his head to the side to look at his boyfriend, and Kangin plants a soft kiss on his cheek, warming it.
“Looks like how it used to be, huh,” Kangin smiles at the scene before him and his lover.
“Yes, it does indeed,” Eeteuk nods.
They watch the ex-couple for a few more minutes until Eeteuk decides that it’s time for them to leave the two magnaes alone and head off to bed. Kangin replies with a quiet, but tiring “okay” before they both wish Kyuhyun luck and close the door.
~@~
Since Ryeowook was sleeping in Kyuhyun’s room, Sungmin had decided to stay in Yesung’s until Kyuhyun had fully healed. He watches as Yesung tosses and turns in the bed across from his. He wonders what’s bothering the man so much tonight.
“Are you okay?” Sungmin asks.
Yesung stops to stare at the ceiling.
“No.”
“Something’s bothering you, isn’t it?”
Yesung doesn’t answer.
“Let me guess, something about Ryeowook?” Sungmin chuckles.
“It’s not funny, Sungmin.” Yesung says in a serious voice.
“I know, hyung.” Sungmin says, while he stops his laughing.
“I don’t like how he has to take care of Kyuhyun. It’s-”
“It’s to help him, hyung.”
“It is supposed to help him regain his memories. To help him remember Kyuhyun. And I don’t want him to remember, Sungmin! I don’t want him to leave me just because of those memories. I love him. I love him. I’m so scared he might suddenly jump up the next day only to remember that he loves Kyuhyun, our magnae and not me. I’m worried he may realize that Kyuhyun’s his boyfriend and not me.”
Sungmin just sits and listens to his hyung’s worries. His hyung was crazy in love and he felt bad for him.
“I really want to be with him, Sungmin. I really want him to see only me and nobody else. Why can’t it be that easy? I’ve loved him ever since I’ve met him. I feel so stupid for never letting him know my feelings. I wish I had fought harder for him. If I did, maybe we could’ve been a true couple. Maybe then, he wouldn’t have been with Kyuhyun because then I would be the one giving him every single thing he needs and not Kyuhyun. I don’t want him to leave me, Sungmin. The thought’s painful. It kills me, knowing that Ryeowook could remember any moment.”
Yesung’s crying now. Sungmin goes over and embraces his hyung.
“There are times when you must sacrifice one thing you absolutely love even if you don’t want to. And when the time comes, you are forced to let it go. Even so, the best will always come out of it. Trust me, hyung. When your time comes, and you let go, you’ll feel like you’re falling down from the tallest mountain ever, but don’t you forget, there is always something or someone who will help catch you and brighten up your life. You can’t live a solemn life forever.” Sungmin says.
And Yesung shuts his eyes close, more tears falling.
“I know… I know. I can’t keep him forever with me even if I wanted to… I can’t.” Yesung murmurs sadly along with a broken smile because he knows his time is coming soon.
so? hehe! did you guys enjoy it? awesome yes? we're able to really see what poor yesungie is feeling inside, and how confused ryeowook has become. kekeke. and will kyuhyun get better soon? will the luck kangteuk wished for kyuhyun actually work? hmm... until the next chapter, we'll see. i love you all~ now comment aways to make me happy! 8D
Chapter: 13/??
Past Chapters: 01| 02| 03| 04| 05| 06| 07| 08| 09| 10| 11| 12
Pairings: KyuWook, YeWook, KiSung (later on), etc. (other minor pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: Kyuhyun and Ryeowook were a happy and lovely couple until Ryeowook fell into a coma. He wakes up and doesn't remember a thing about Super Junior. Yesung has been known to have a crush on Ryeowook. He's overjoyed, yet broken inside to know Ryeowook has no more memories of them. He takes this time to go on ahead and convince Ryeowook that they were lovers. Problems arise in Super Junior thanks to Yesung's doings. Kyuhyun can only do so little to help Ryeowook try and remember, but he knows it's almost impossible. Ryeowook knows Yesung's his "boyfriend", but he doesn't understand why he doesn't feel any love growing towards the man even when he does so much for him. Will he ever regain his memories and realize that Kyuhyun's really his love?
Author's Note: Oh my goodness! I've finally finished typing up this chapter! Hooray for me! And happiness to you all, my wonderful readers!<3 8D And I'm sorry I haven't updated in such a long time! But today I was able to find some time and actually get stuff written! So yayhoo! Kekekeke. xD And guess what?! My volleyball season is over in two weeks or so, so that means my updating pace may pick up a little after the 15th of October! Awesome, isn't it? (: So anyways, now you guys can go read! Enjoy this chapter because I think there's a few exciting things that happen! 8D LOL. Note: this is kind of an intense chappie? xD
Ryeowook is asked to watch over Kyuhyun for the next few days, against Yesung’s will. He did not want Ryeowook to watch over Kyuhyun. He knows what the band members are trying to do and even though he wants to object to the idea, he can’t because it’ll make Ryeowook curious. And if Ryeowook is curious, it won’t be good, so he acts as if everything is fine and goes to finish his schedule for the day.
~@~
Kyuhyun’s sleeping with a look of pain on his face. Ryeowook frowns and checks his temperature. It’s still high as ever, so he gets up to go rewet the damp cloth. He comes back a minute later and sits in his same spot on the bed beside the ill boy. He is taken aback when he’s about to place the cool cloth on Kyuhyun’s forehead and notices a few stray tears slipping through Kyuhyun’s lidded eyes. In quick, but soft motions, he pushes away the magnae’s wet bangs that are plastered to his forehead and places the wet cloth on Kyuhyun’s forehead. Just shortly afterwards he brings down a hand and carefully wipes away Kyuhyun’s tears with his delicate fingers.
“Kyuhyun are you okay…?” Ryeowook whispers with much concern.
He waits awhile, but receives no reply. Already knowing that Kyuhyun is asleep, he feels stupid for even asking. He can’t help himself from feeling the need to protect Kyuhyun, and make sure he becomes healthy and well again. He’s not sure why he’s feeling this way, but he’s willing to find out sometime soon. He sighs and stares down at the sleeping boy, without realizing it his hand begins caressing Kyuhyun’s cheek.
“Why do I do this, Kyuhyun…?” Ryeowook whispers.
~@~
Kibum walks into his room and catches Yesung sitting on his bed. His eyes are wide. What’s he doing here? The older of the two looks up and smiles a little up at the younger one. Kibum is lost and is unsure of what Yesung is up to. He takes his time to put his things away and can’t help but feel uncomfortable with the man’s gaze following his every move. He takes a seat beside Yesung, giving them space. They’re stuck in an unusual silence until Kibum is tired.
“Hyung, I want to sleep. I’m tired.” He mumbles.
Yesung looks at him and frowns a little.
“Kibum, can we talk?”
“About what? We could’ve talked weeks ago.” Kibum says tiredly.
“I know, but… can you just hear me out?” Yesung begs.
Kibum wishes he could say no, but he wants to hear what his hyung wants to say, and so he listens.
“I know you love me and I mean a lot to you, but… I’m sorry. I’m with Ryeowook now. I can’t just-”
Kibum doesn’t need to hear anymore. He’s tired of hearing the same words come out of the man’s mouth.
“He’s not yours! How many times… how many times do I have to ask you to accept that? He belongs with Kyuhyun, Yesung… They belong together. Just… let him go. Kyuhyun’s hurting as much as I am! We’re both hurting because of you!” Kibum cries out loud. “Stop telling me you’re sorry! Stop telling me you know I love you!”
Yesung just stares at him, once again speechless. Kibum realizes that he’s never going to get a response from him.
“Can you leave me alone now? I’m tired.” Kibum asks.
“I’m sorry,” Yesung nods.
Kibum watches as he gets up and goes out of his room, behind his door. He lies down on his bed and curls into a ball. Tears skid across his face and fall onto the snow white pillow.
“I love you, you idiot…” Kibum whispers to no one.
~@~
Yesung is walking to his and Ryeowook’s room, but stops when he passes Sungmin’s and Kyuhyun’s room. He takes a peek through the crack of the door and doorframe. He frowns when he sees Ryeowook caress Kyuhyun’s face though. He wants to walk in, but feels too hurt to move. His hand on the door slightly gives way, causing the door to open a little more and creak. He takes a quick step away from the the door and rushes his way to his room. Why is it him?
~@~
Ryeowook hears a creak and quickly removes his hand from Kyuhyun’s face. He looks up at the door and sees that the door had been pushed further open. He wonders who it is, but seeing that no one is planning on coming in, he calms himself down and looks down at Kyuhyun again. He gets up and goes to look out into the hallway. He sees no one and decides to shut the door due to the loud buzzing coming from Donghae and Eunhyuk’s videogame.
He walks back to Kyuhyun’s bed and lies down beside him with the little space he had. He hums that unknown song once again and before he knows it, he’s singing to it. As he continues to sing, he starts to wonder. Where have I heard this song? How do I even know it? Does it mean something? He finishes it and frowns. He was tired. Very tired. He feels his eye lids start to close and then he’s slipping into a peaceful darkness. But before he did he had one last thought: Why is it, that I can fall asleep so easily beside him?
~@~
Eeteuk yells at Eunhyuk and Donghae for being too noisy. It was late and he and many of the others were tired. The rest never really understood why Eunhyuk and Donghae could just keep going even when they were exhausted. But he wasn’t going to find out anyways. The two boys pout like puppies and turn off their game. They drag their feet heavily on the floors to their shared room. Eeteuk just laughs at them.
“Those two,” he smiles.
He remembers he wants to check on Kyuhyun and Ryeowook, so he starts walking to the room they were in. He makes sure not to make any noise when he opens the door. He’s shocked to see Ryeowook asleep beside Kyuhyun, squished on the small twin sized bed. But nonetheless he smiles at the scene because it reminds him of the past when KyuWook used to be together-happily together. He stares at the sweet scene.
“Hey…”
Eeteuk becomes a little startled when he feels Kangin’s hushed greeting against his ear and his big arms wrapping around his thin frame. He turns his head to the side to look at his boyfriend, and Kangin plants a soft kiss on his cheek, warming it.
“Looks like how it used to be, huh,” Kangin smiles at the scene before him and his lover.
“Yes, it does indeed,” Eeteuk nods.
They watch the ex-couple for a few more minutes until Eeteuk decides that it’s time for them to leave the two magnaes alone and head off to bed. Kangin replies with a quiet, but tiring “okay” before they both wish Kyuhyun luck and close the door.
~@~
Since Ryeowook was sleeping in Kyuhyun’s room, Sungmin had decided to stay in Yesung’s until Kyuhyun had fully healed. He watches as Yesung tosses and turns in the bed across from his. He wonders what’s bothering the man so much tonight.
“Are you okay?” Sungmin asks.
Yesung stops to stare at the ceiling.
“No.”
“Something’s bothering you, isn’t it?”
Yesung doesn’t answer.
“Let me guess, something about Ryeowook?” Sungmin chuckles.
“It’s not funny, Sungmin.” Yesung says in a serious voice.
“I know, hyung.” Sungmin says, while he stops his laughing.
“I don’t like how he has to take care of Kyuhyun. It’s-”
“It’s to help him, hyung.”
“It is supposed to help him regain his memories. To help him remember Kyuhyun. And I don’t want him to remember, Sungmin! I don’t want him to leave me just because of those memories. I love him. I love him. I’m so scared he might suddenly jump up the next day only to remember that he loves Kyuhyun, our magnae and not me. I’m worried he may realize that Kyuhyun’s his boyfriend and not me.”
Sungmin just sits and listens to his hyung’s worries. His hyung was crazy in love and he felt bad for him.
“I really want to be with him, Sungmin. I really want him to see only me and nobody else. Why can’t it be that easy? I’ve loved him ever since I’ve met him. I feel so stupid for never letting him know my feelings. I wish I had fought harder for him. If I did, maybe we could’ve been a true couple. Maybe then, he wouldn’t have been with Kyuhyun because then I would be the one giving him every single thing he needs and not Kyuhyun. I don’t want him to leave me, Sungmin. The thought’s painful. It kills me, knowing that Ryeowook could remember any moment.”
Yesung’s crying now. Sungmin goes over and embraces his hyung.
“There are times when you must sacrifice one thing you absolutely love even if you don’t want to. And when the time comes, you are forced to let it go. Even so, the best will always come out of it. Trust me, hyung. When your time comes, and you let go, you’ll feel like you’re falling down from the tallest mountain ever, but don’t you forget, there is always something or someone who will help catch you and brighten up your life. You can’t live a solemn life forever.” Sungmin says.
And Yesung shuts his eyes close, more tears falling.
“I know… I know. I can’t keep him forever with me even if I wanted to… I can’t.” Yesung murmurs sadly along with a broken smile because he knows his time is coming soon.
so? hehe! did you guys enjoy it? awesome yes? we're able to really see what poor yesungie is feeling inside, and how confused ryeowook has become. kekeke. and will kyuhyun get better soon? will the luck kangteuk wished for kyuhyun actually work? hmm... until the next chapter, we'll see. i love you all~ now comment aways to make me happy! 8D