well shit. after posting my last post i dedcided to check to see what my "friends" might have posted and lo and behold the first thing i see is carlotta drunk and giving me the finger. well she's giving the camera the finger...but if she knew i was looking at it shed probably say "yeah that;s for u assfuck." i cant force myself to be in you life ( Read more... )

ugh...my mind, body, and soul are tired of stressin out about all the things i need to do...i know that if i were to take it slow and organize my thoughts...take time to take care of things one by one, it would reduce stress like a mother fucker. but the things is...i really dont have time to take it slow and steady with a lot of these things...i ( Read more... )

salty tears and drops of blood run down my face...no i didnt cut my face...i cried so much my nose bled...i dont know if i can handle this...emoemoemo...i want to be with you more than anything in the universe...i want to hold you more than anyone could ever experience in their life...it hurts to think that i wont even hear your voice for a time ( Read more... )

i hope everything goes ok for you...if things get too stressful or hard for you i hope you would still know that you can call me and talk to me...i dont want us to have to not talk to each other like this...but if it makes things easier for you then i can deal with it. i love you and will always care about you...

~chris

lets see...what are all the thigns going on in my life right now...need to find a place to live...but to find a place to live i need rent money...but for rent money i need a job...but to get a job i need an address and more time...on top of that i need a car or transportation of some sort...i feel like i'm back to where i was before...i guess i AM ( Read more... )

fuckin shit man...so much shit has been happening thats been pissing me the fuck off. court, home life, job shit, petty fuckin arguments with carlotta. i'm gettin tired of havin to watch every fuckin thing i do around her cause it might be something that she doesnt agree with but then she wont tell me it bothers her until it becomes a problem. ( Read more... )

havent been on here in a long ass time...havent been on the computer for a while actually...well...i have the construction job still goin through and for now i have a weekend job doing...you'll never guess...wait for it...SIGN TWIRLING!!! yay!! not that theres anythign wrong with it...still gettin paid...getting a new car within the next two weeks ( Read more... )

what do you do when the person that convinced you to quit drugs/quit drugs with you/your GF decides they want to start doin drugs again? Tell her she can't start doin drugs again and be a controllin douchebag? Start doing drugs yourself again along with her and completely disregard the efforts you both made for the past four months or so? Talk ( Read more... )

This week has been by far one of the most eventful i've had in quite a long long time. There was olive garden with Carlotta on the 26th...Sharp twins b-day on the 28th...My sister's b-day on the 29th...Halloween on the 31st...i guess i'll jsut go down the list cause i'm so organized like that ( Read more... )

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~no one would notice anyways