I was a star that flutters about with pixies for a while. Then I got shot out of the sky somehow and somehow, without the sky as a reminder, I had to remember that I was a star. What is a star without the dark night sky to shine in? Is not still a beautiful source of light? I suppose that would lend to the question what is light within light? Is ( Read more... )

i've been travelling. now here i am, sitting at a computer, eyes burning and feeling exposed. i miss the darkness of the islands. Its nice here, but I want to know that. Every cell of my being is committed to manifesting a life on gabriola. Opportunities are closer. signs are more frequent. its meant to be.

Can I even begin to explain how history repeats itself ( Read more... )

I wonder what games that child is playing now ( Read more... )

 I can hardly believe how quickly time seems to be passing, how many memories I'm collecting. Snow has fallen again. Last year when snow fell I was still making love to Red. Hes no longer in my life and I may never see him again for all I know. When people say 'jaded' I never really understood. When I dated older guys, I never really understood. ( Read more... )

Deaths been closer to me today than usual. It occured continents away but death does not know distances. Hovering over my shoulder as a reminder to do what I want to now. Maybe we can take a message from plants, dying each winter but reminding us each summer that they come back ( Read more... )

I  found myself sorely stoned the other night. I couldn't remember why I'd gotten there or how, but everyone I knew had been left behind. Slowly I became accustomed to the new personalities surrounding me but they were not the ones I remember. My eyes stayed open for them and they accordingly entered my life, one at a time once again. I had so much ( Read more... )

"Squint your eyes and look closer, I'm not between you and your ambition ( Read more... )

I look back at the heartbreaks I've encountered over the past two years. All of them seemed beautiful and magical but all filled with more pain and tears than any lasting love ( Read more... )

Its two years ago that I entered last. 
Time hasw elapsed. I have grown, in what direction? Well I certainly have a better hold over those once atrocious emotions. 
I'm older, wiser, slightly more jaded. 
Not nearly as passionate as I once was, not as daring nor as adventurous...or maybe adventurous in a different way. I don't feel as bold as I once ( Read more... )