People have horrible taste in music. Their music preferences are no longer based on aesthetic resonance, rather as an alternative their music preference is base solely on media influence.

What's going on ( Read more... )

I sat at my computer in my room after a nights adventures on meth. I could actually begin to feel myself in the 60s at a huge outdoor concert, Laura Nyro just performed. Now Jefferson Airplane is on. John was holding his guitar, it was not plugged into the amp though so it hardly produced a sound compared to the booming, "If only we believed in ( Read more... )

Its funny to think of the name I chose before anything became certain. Before Lucy invaded my life and, well, after marijuana but before any harder drugs. I missed the good years, when I was a tormented teenager with an undiagnosed disorder. I cannot say that my current borderline personality disorder existed then, or perhaps I was a mere teen ( Read more... )

i just spent 10 minutes writing a letter to rob, I thought it was an email. How did I end up here? I am tripping out I suppose. Oh right, on cough syrup. I may just keep writing and erasing so I should stop. Fuck! Stop arg....

Lucy snorted some E tonight after drinking red wine at dinner along with asparagus and cauliflour. Then she had some gin and tonic. A friend gave her some cough syrup after that. SHe disappeared in herself then. SOme pot added along and the worlds axes reversed.
No, nothings reversed. Theres no hope for anything or nothing ever.

Kathy is flourishing! Jacob does not believe in the other side though. Lucy saw John at the rave this Saturday. She was with Kathy. They didn't say hello to each other. They dance to the slow, acid ambiant music. He left then, without saying goodbye. Kathy and Lucy danced until 6:30 in the morning. Lucy thought about John about 14 times between ( Read more... )

Should call her Vera, but I would prefer to call her Kathy. I'm not sure that she will respond though. Perhaps she may after hearing Kathy's song. Lucy's prefers Kathy as well. Although, desert her kind? Isn't that a cruel thing to ask her to do ( Read more... )

Moms home. Things are easy to deal with right now. I'm not sure how long they will stay this way though. Lucy is lost. I'm searching for her every chance I get. I blame the Paxil. I think ( Read more... )

Set out running but I take my time,
A friend of the devil is a friend of mine.
If I get home before daylight,
I just might get some sleep tonight.
-Robert Hunter