I go into periods of restlessness,
being unable to sleep,
of being so goddamn tired that
I begin to nod off whereever I am.
At home,
where I am guaranteed peace,
quiet,
the coolness from the blasting AC,
I close my eyes but
the insistent cirlces my mind weaves
wakes me,
brings me up parched and aching.

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Even monkeys fall from trees
           i fell!  and the
shifts and shadowsfrom
lighted leaves
enchantme
Content to be on
the       soft      grass
      underneath
        the shade

How can a textbook that cost $140 to buy at a school campus only cost $3.84 to sell back ( Read more... )

Time is like grains of sand passing through fingertips.
I've sealed my fate with your kiss.
Why does everything remind me of Chicago?
Fairytales flit thru my subconscious
greens shade butterflies and the soft wind
smelling of promises for more.
It's easier to deal with the anger than the love I feel for you.

i feel so many insecurities its driving me crazy and i feel the only way to let them out is write them. if only it will bring me little peace. sometimes i feel as i really should see a psychiatrist so they can prescribe some mood drugs or something to stabilize me. and all the while all these useless thoughts drivel on in my head: what if he isnt ( Read more... )

The heat was soft against my skin as I walked through downtown, its old empirical buildings towering over me. An old sense of who I used to be filled me, essentially I was always alone. My boots pressed harshly against my toes, in my procrastinated rush out of the apartment I've forsaken socks, but the sound against the pavement instilled more ( Read more... )

The panic is slowly settling in. Time is ticking, its note striking a chord against my life. TIME IS TICKING. Im 21 I'm young and yet not. I feel like I'm wasting time, wasting time doing all these foolish, selfish endeavors that I insist in calling "life". Most of my friends did the right thing, went off to a 4 year university, did the degree, is ( Read more... )

Its my day off and I'm with my family and yet I cant feel any more distant from them. Im liking the time I'm spending with my niece though. She's getting older everyday. Learning things without me everyday and its difficult not feeling bad that I cant spend more time with her.

All Nite Diner

Modest Mouse