I still love the boys.

I can't help it. I am stuck with guys for the rest of my life. Boys, please come and break my heart. k thx.

Why do boys have to be so confusing? I hate em. I am going to be a lesbian now with Jessy. So no more guys, I swear them off. I am now a full fledged lesbian with Jessy. She already started telling people at school that we are going out. So, sorry boys, not like you care, but I am a lesbian now. No penis for Leah anymore.

I just got back today. Wow I am so glad to be home. I never want to go back to that place ever again. That was the most horrible experiance ever. Please, I never want to go back there again. But the reason why I was in there, I want to do that again. I got put in the manual for trying to kill myself. I don't want to go back to the manual, ( Read more... )

..nothing lasts forever, I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

Blegh. Bad mood. I suck. Kill me please. k thx.

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Oh my God. I need some help. Now. Please. K thx. People need to just leave me be. I cut myself. Wow. Big thing. I am not hurting anyone but myself so stay out of it. Thank you. I am sick of people bitching at me. I don't need this right now. It just adds to everything. I have no one to go to.

I am heavily medicated.

I can't even explain the past few days. I am fucking stupid. I cut my left arm up and down all over I have 8 huge gashes on it and I can't explain why I did it. It was during another anxiety attack. I am so fucking stupid. I can't believe I am an actual living person. My mother thinks that since my first anxiety attack was at school I have ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning feeling like shit, as you can tell in my last post. I am so stupid. I did something totally stupid last night and I hate myself for it. Then I got to school, and I started having a panic/anxiety attack in the middle of World History. That was fun! So then I decided to skip the rest of my classes that I had in the morning ( Read more... )

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