sometimes when you think the trees are never going to be green again, you see a bud and it inspires a little hope. the sun is shinning on this beautiful campus, the wrongs have been righted, my options are open, my future is promising, and lunch is served. what more could i ask for ( Read more... )

it smells like coffee here. the heat is actually regulated. there's food in the frige, and clean sheets on my bed. i'm home. it's more contagious here, though. i sat in my bed for a good three hours feeling that sickness. that longing. i played a game to distract myself, but i ran over in my head about 100 times what it would say if i wrote ( Read more... )

it's just one of those days ( Read more... )

"And I take everyday at a time ( Read more... )

Q: WHOS THE 4TH PERSON ON YOUR RECEIVED CALL LIST ( Read more... )

ok, so i stayed up until 1 AM doing that entry last night -- and boy am i paying for it today. i think the most shocking part of looking back and finding those things that i wrote is the fact that two years have gone by and nothing's changed. my feelings are the same. the entry from 2.22 probably disturbs me the most: "It's like I can make it ( Read more... )

02.22.04 ( Read more... )

i'm walking down a road ( Read more... )

"'cause you can't jump the tracks
we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hour glass
glued to the table,
no one can find the rewind button girl,
so cradle your head in your hands

and breathe,
just breathe."

for the first time in a long time i'm feel a sense of relief. ::SIGH::

i wrote this yesterday, but decided i'd put it up today ( Read more... )