one of my favorite phrases to think of is 'this time'.  it implies a sense of hope, and also illuminates the darkness of the past.  reaching forward for something that was not possible in the past, something that is perhaps futile, but also hopeful.  it exudes a sense of denial with it also, a sense of recklessness that only comes from a desperate ( Read more... )

it isn't that time heals all.  this illusion permits the impression of truth, only because nothing lasts.  those memories and sensations, the lightness of that moment start to disconnect as time passes until our minds fail us, and we can no longer completely remember.  that idea, that emotion, as it dies and begins to decay, we lose our connection ( Read more... )

after all this chemical engineering bs, i've decided that i'm gona look into teaching careers.  why?  because chemical engineering is boring, because i learned nothing, because teaching seems like a chill job with lots of vacation time.  so after a whole day of online researching, i've figured out that in order to become a teacher, i'm gona take ( Read more... )

hmm weirdly lots of progress being made.  surprising.  

mmm so i couldnt' fall asleep... (wat a freak of nature), probably cus i was too stressed out.  so i think i'm selling my bike, and gona get a car... yeah it sounds sorta crazy since i'm broke as shit, but i guess it's my project for the summer.  i'll probably need $3000 for a ford focus (which is what i'm thinking of getting), when i sell my bike ( Read more... )

all the things i have yet to understand...

wow i like read some of my recent posts... they sound hella retarded... fml, i can't believe i didn't notice how stupid and ridiculous they sound. oh well...

and in this moment, i am happy.

-Incubus

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in the end, we all want to be happy...  but, we differ on what we believe it should be.  one man's hell is another man's paradise.   

that ethereal silver gaze passing by ( Read more... )

me and david have just been talking online and watnot, and like... things are going well. not that we're going out or watever, but i guess i can see it happening really naturally.