ok...lately mom has been working like crazy...she got a 2nd job to pay off some credit card bills...well i have been trying to limit her stress around the house...i do mine and her laundy, i cook dinner so that she doesn't have to worry about what she is going to eat when she gets home from work, and i clean the majority of the house...well i did ( Read more... )

its been pretty fun...been in CT since last Friday...hmm..the 27th or so...can't remember..lol...no surprise there...that saturday was matt's grad party...wasn't really a lot of fun 4 me considering i knew almost no one there...but i ended up leaving with corey and sheri at about 3 or so...went back to her house then we went shopping over at ( Read more... )

ok...well we just hired this new guy at work named Bryan...he's 19 and so freaking hot!! i was flirting with him so bad that even my manager noticed...thank god it was the nice one...she's just like "hey amanda what you up to?" and i was just like "what do you mean?" she's like "what are you up to?" .."at work? i'm doing go backs"..."ok..kool ( Read more... )

o shit...i partyied a lot last night...went over to ashley's after work (bout 10:30 or so)...got there and we shared the jack punch i brought...then i grabbed a smirnoff...her brother smokes hooka so he had his bong there...we all were sitting around it...i decided to give it a try..damn...after a few inhales i got a total buzz...i got light headed ( Read more... )

i hate mel and brit so much right now...i want to tear their hearts out...they keep giving bryan shit when he sits next to me or if i give him a note...and now he is reconsidering a few things...and i'm so pissed off right now...i cried for an hr on the fone last nite...i dont even think i'm capable of crying anymore..i have no emotions left...my ( Read more... )

Cohan was being a complete bitch to me...she kept saying if i was a true friend i would try and find out y my mother won't let me hang out with her...when she knows damn well what the reason is...she just can't remember...she claims i never told her... whatever...then i told her i wouldn't talk to her till she calmed down and she's like "well you ( Read more... )

i can't stand shit anymore...at work i wanna bitch out my managers...at skool i'm stressing major time...and my friends i feel like i'm yelling and being mean to them for no reason...and i don't like being like this...this side of me freaks the hell outta me...i havn't been like this in a long time...i have even layed in bed and cried at nite..and ( Read more... )

when i was at Homecoming i was hanging out with bryan a lot instead of hanging out with my group most of the time...which i do feel bad for but i was really happy being with bry...i had a lot of fun...we danced and talked...and i needed that...lex talked to me about it later on that nite saying she didn't wanna see me get hurt by him...well both me ( Read more... )

i have decided that once i am 18 and i move out that i'm gonna cut my father, grandmother and aunt outta my life for a bit..i'm gonna move outta my mom's apt and not gonna leave a forwarding address or # for him...the only ppl on his side of the family i will keep in contact with is kim, dave, and the kids...i'm just sick of my dad's family ( Read more... )

i am so mad at my self for the feelings i am having...i still have feelings for bryan...i look around my room and something somehow reminds me of us being together...i look at pictures and i can remember the exact date that it was taken and what we were doing and how we acted up to the exact detail...i look at the monkey and bear he gave me and can ( Read more... )