lately i have been feeling unwanted...by my parents, family, friends and guys...i feel like if i died tonight that no one would notice and if they did they wouldn't care...i feel like a usless piece of matter here just to take up space...i feel like i am not ment to be happy...that i am supposed to live and die alone and miserable..i really don't ( Read more... )

i have been thinking and i am glad me and bry dated but in a way i'm not... don't get me wrong, i loved being with him, but i also had a GREAT friendship with him...i used to be able to tell him anything...but lately, since we have been broken up, we don't talk much...i want to continue being friends with him...i want to be like we were before we ( Read more... )

sometimes i just wanna scream!!! especially at grandma! she has e-mailed me 3 times in the past month and i know i have to write her back but i have been too busy...well i woke up this morning and read my e-mails and there was one from my younger cousin...here's what it said ( Read more... )

i hate the feeling of being stereotyped...just b/c i am a teen doens't mean i'm out to destroy the world...and it seems like that's all adults think of us now a days...and when you walk into a store all the employees stare at you and stalk you like you are going to steal something...and it is getting as bad as our own PEERS watch us in the stores ( Read more... )

i forgot i was gonna put this little inside joke in another journal but i forgot so i'm gonna put in in here:

My Dodge wanted to mate with a Ford and make a Forgery...

sorry...it's a really bad one but i wanted to put it in here

1. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: depends on how lazy i feel like being ( Read more... )

today was just going perfect today...i went out with some friends after skool...thought eveything was fine between me and bry till i talk to his best friend...everything's getting worse...i don't open up to bry...that's y he's pissed...i don't open up to him b/c i don't feel like he cares...and neither bry nor his best understand that...i can't ( Read more... )

nothing else to do so i'm doing this ( Read more... )

i got into a big fight with my boyfriend tonight...he said a lot of things that i am not going to repeat on here...it just really hurt me...i have been on my floor crying all night...my eyes burn b/c of my mascara and my throat hurts b/c i've been crying so hard that i have been having gag reflexes...i don't know if we will survive throught this ( Read more... )

1. First Name: Amanda ( Read more... )