with my actions  are a prime example of how  i am confusing to understand but when you know me really well everything makes sense. thats why i dont like people to just get small facts or know certain things because it often throws people off, and then they get lost in my thinking instead of trying to understand and comprehend the way i have the ( Read more... )

 you think your special...you do. thats very uncanny way to look at our relationship, (relationshit). thats actually a very bad way of looking at it. i know you think i only would take you back because i was so in love with you...but honestly..it wasnt that. any obese, hairy, horny, scummy, white trash piece of human being would have been suitable ( Read more... )

is the best friend anyone could ever ask for. she is perfect for me..she is the sweetest, most itelligent, wise, caring, cutest,  actual friend i have. she always seems to be there for me and it makes my life seem not as bad. she gets me feeling better with a paragraph of her brilliant knowlege and fantastic oppinion. she is the greatest giirl, i ( Read more... )

 at the most vital times, i dont ask for the help i need. its more help than making a sandwhich and more help than a shoulder to cry on. its the help i feel the need to run away from. but i know i need this. i know this is very important to my well being. but im not sure if i actually want to put the effort into it. i need this, i cant lie to ( Read more... )

ew you make me sick... half of you are just myspace nobodies. you have nothing in your life so you make one up on myspace. i used to think that it was in pure fun then i finally grew out of it. and all of you are just fucking the same person that says there so hardcore or so not in any click or scene. well that scene your not in, was exsistant and ( Read more... )

 i can honestly say that is been to long. its been awhile since i have felt myself..and i dont feel im in touch with myself anymore. its been to long, that i have looked in a mirror and felt okay, with who i was. and its now just another thing to sob about. its been so long, since i have been happy and felt like i actually was living. i dont want ( Read more... )

stuck in the back of my throat, choking me. sleeping in the larnyx in me, and screaming through all the sahdes of glass it bleeds from the inflamation. the choke seems to be teh only friend i can feel inside me. but its so deep, that  with all this, i still even feel empty. i cant reassure myself or others anymore that i will be alright. i swear, ( Read more... )

 i wish i had a person that would make me pull myself out of bed in the morning. a person that has a connection with me that would be a drug of its own. someone that will run away from my hometown with me, and we'd travel anyplace with a different coast than ours. one that would look me in the eyes with complete love and tenderness, and whispers ( Read more... )

take me to the hospital. pump me full of the fluids that could make my insides go plastic, and fail. cross my heart out and ripp each tendon out. i'll close my eyes and wish the emotions away with a mental trigger to pull. and blow the suffering of living another day out of my head. i need to strech my sleeves out to cover the blood that tainted my ( Read more... )

 you dont understand. you cant agree with what i'd have to say..that would make you sick too. id leak infected affection all over you. and all the roads that lead me to your heart, are being torn back into the dark...and there's now no reason to change my mind. my hands are tied behind my back, and my neck is bruised. my heart falls faster away ( Read more... )