i have had trouble sleeping lately, i wake up several times during the night, always the exact same times every night. 2:30, and 4, and then somewhere between 5 and 8. sometimes i can fall right back asleep, most of the time i cant, and i just sit for a half hour. i know exactly why i am waking up during these times, i do not know why i am STILL ( Read more... )

why are all the guys nowadays wearing those gay ass tight motherfucking jeans and retarded belts and lame as fuck tight tee shirts. i mean, seriously, why cant they wear skater shoes and baggier tee shirts and not have to worry about being so goddamn hip. i cant stand it! you would think that out of the many guys that i saw today, there would be ( Read more... )

that movie 'ghost world' is really depressing.

why cant i just stop thinking about clay? why is this bothering me so much? i feel like such a loser for letting it get to me this much ( Read more... )

i dont know if those are options that i wish to pursue ( Read more... )

i cant sleep, i feel pathetic, it is totally silent in my house right now, thats when i do the most thinking, thats when i feel the most sorry, i wish i could turn everything around. i wish that this wasnt so hard.

i woke up this morning feeling nauseous and dizzy. i could barely walk. now i am all shaky, but a little better. only i am starting to see double. this is only the 2nd time i have called in sick in almost 4 years, so why do i still feel guilty?

i already miss soophie entirely too much. gawd i love that dog.

amelie was so beautiful. i want a story like that.

my house is so messy. i need to clean all day. clay called me on friday night, i havent spoken with him yet, but im really curious to see what he has to say.