Its been a while since I've sat down at a computer and let my thoughts flow.... Lets see...Something I've been testing latly is to try and stop having expectations of any new situation.... Just another activity to potentially aid me in becoming a more peaceful individual.... Excersising this, I will ideally be able to appreciate whatever does come ( Read more... )

recently, i've been so organized. its almost an out of body experience when i walk into my room or bathroom. its unfortunate that i had always thought i never had the audacity to keep myself in check long enough to be consistent. now, i'm afriad i'm becoming slightly o.c.d. but, not to the fullest extent (that being my mother who wipes down the ( Read more... )

yesterday, at lake eola, i was laying in the sun, resting on the grassy peninsula, noticing the little amoebas in my eyes, and how when i squinted the light emmiting from the sun would seperate into all different basic colors when shone on the moisture in them. i just napped there for about an hour, listening to the birds flap their wings, and ( Read more... )

today i was cleaning my bathroom, and stumbled across a crumbled peice of paper, that was a printed out news report covering my friend dixie's sisters murder. . . it had been discussed, and hashed out so many times prior, that i felt i was entirely numb to it. . . but, for some reason, as i read this i began to cry unceasingly, and experience it ( Read more... )

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its a mystery, some puzzel that looks as though its completed, i see a full idea in this picture. but yet, there is always a new excuse to trample it, blur out the concrete idea, and attempt at finding new meaning from this situation which i've touched from every angle, every emotion, seen in all lights a thousand lives over ( Read more... )

after concluding the party. . . seeing off the last two people this morning, after a gourmet meal, thanks to the grand-chef pete. i thought back on all the events of the evening prior, and smiled a huge genuine grin. i was at first leary of meshing friends groups. . but, after recieving so many comments like "all you're friends are just so ( Read more... )

i can't help but feel despair for the world at large. i need an alternative. seeking only brings upon harsh realizations, of the uselessness of a money driven society. . . everywhere i look, everything i touch, see, feel, smell, has been manufactured by some company, or someone, to gain profit, money. but, shouldn't profit be more than just green ( Read more... )

i couldn't of had a better new years. jack and bryce know how to throw a party, and i absolutly loved playing bartender for the evening. who knew that there were so many different lauren-concoctions that were just waiting to be invented, and consumed? anyhow, the company was probably what made the evening its finest yet. birdie bird is such a ( Read more... )