I really haven't updated this lately but, I really feel like I need to bitch and moan and cry about some stupid shit ( Read more... )

I really don't know what I am thinking or feeling. But I have talked to you for almost longer then anyone else I know right now. I value your friendship way more then you know, way more then I can express. When you feel down, all I wish I can do is be there and help you out. But, even though I know I can't it doesn't stop me from wishing I could ( Read more... )

Things have been great these last few days. My depression is really leaving and things are so much better for me. Even though some shit is going down that kinda is upsetting, I don't even worry about it at all ( Read more... )

This last week has really been something different. So much shit has happened, and everything has been the exact opposite of what I have expected... or at least liked. I feel like all I do is bitch and whine, but as hard as I try... I can't help it. Its just how things seem to me. So many times I try to tell myself that things really aren't that ( Read more... )

Well when I woke up, I didn't really update my journal like I really wanted to. I said most of what I was thinking, but not all of it ( Read more... )

I really regret how I acted the night before. I realized this from the moment I woke up and started thinking. Jenna at least is more mature in I am in the way she reacts to things. Her e-mail made so much more sense then anything I have written lately. I've been told some of those things before. But I really wish I could just do what she said and ( Read more... )

I'm really super fucking mad right now. Everything Jenna has said to me in the last 2 weeks has either masked her true intentions, or just been a big fucking lie. Everything she said gave off the illusion at some point she would like to try to get back together ( Read more... )

Well today fucking sucked right off the bat. I got up at 6 when my alarm went off, but that was too early so I set it for 6:30.. then 6:45. After I finally got up I went into work ( Read more... )

Today wasn't too bad. After each talk me and Jenna have I start to feel better. And, the times that I do slip into a foul mood, it isn't near as bad at least ( Read more... )

It is amazing what a good talk can do. I feel so much better, but at the same time a lot worse. Its hard missing someone.