That is how I feel right now... like I haven't pushed myself to the brink. I think there is some place you can go when you punish your body and push through pain. I want to go there.

I'm feeling a little under the weather, emotionally speaking. I'm not upset about anything in particular but I don't feel very excited or hopeful. Today it dawned on me to rid myself of all the useless crap littering my house. I got rid of 4 huge bags of clothing that were either too big or too ugly. I got rid of even more books that I never plan ( Read more... )

I think I still write in here so one day when I'm famous for being the most boring and unintentionally fucked up human being on the face of the earth my livejournal can be printed out and studied by scholars and shit ( Read more... )

I woke up hungry and stayed hungry all day. I don't remember a time when I wanted to eat this much since my super-fat days. I'm premenstrual which is creating a lot of emotional bullcrap along with bloating and superhunger ( Read more... )

First of all - I have DAVID BYRNE tickets, oh I'm sorry, one ticket. I am going to drive my lonely ass to the show in Ann Arbor because pretty much no one either knows of him, likes his music, or wants to drop a shit-ton of money right now ( Read more... )

Money is gonna be real tight over the next two weeks. I'm half excited to see how far I can stretch a dollar. Normally I just spend money constantly on bullshit that I do not need. For instance, I drink a Monster Energy Drink every single day. That is like.. 3 dollars a day. Sometimes I even drink two. At that cost, I might as well start buying ( Read more... )

Last night I slept for 10 straight hours on my grandmothers couch. The point of me staying there is to be around if she tumbles down the steps, breaks a hip, or wanders outside in the middle of the night. My uncle came in around 10:30am and got kinda mad at me because I was asleep and it smelled like something was burning. Well - I can't even get ( Read more... )

I weigh less, I eat less, that means when I go out I should certainly DRINK less. Now I want to puke my guts and ass up and out ( Read more... )

I'm just feeling weird today. I'm sure it is some type of PMS slump that'll go away in a few days ( Read more... )

Today spun totally out of control. I don't think it is ENTIRELY my fault as Steve and I both can bring out the worst in each other. I just think I have spread myself too thin. I've people pleased one too many times - I seem to devalue what is important to me lately.. and all the while I still come off as being incredibly selfish ( Read more... )