inconclusive. More tests soon. I should find out tomorrow.

more CTs and contrast xrays. That is all I know right now. I have gotten sick but we think it is more related to the ragweed than anything else.

Some of you know I had a heart CT done recently. While it is still very broken the heart is physically fine. They did find a mass in my left lung. I will not know how we are going to proceed until sometime next week. I cannot tell my family until I know something more concrete so I will be facing this alone.

ask them directly. If you ask someone else, they are likely to either not know the real answer or not tell you the real answer.

sigh

nothing like pouring a gallon of salt into a gaping wound to remind you of this.

It is just the reality of the cause and effect of the situation.

This is the saddest day of my life.

Celsea came into my life when I met Michael. I love them both very deeply. She was a part of him and so dear to him. I hurt for myself and I hurt for him that she is gone.

I will miss you sweet girl.

Some beautiful words about Celsea

so I will have a user pic. I always maintained I would not have one because I did not feel I wanted to be identified by some random picture of something...but this is me and I am pretty damn cool.